I Publicly Rejected A Duke — Then Faked An Engagement To Save My Family
Part 2
Thursday afternoon was bitterly cold, though the rain had stopped, leaving the sky a pale bruised gray.
Hyde Park was the theater of London society.
Even in the biting November wind, the gravel paths were populated with open carriages, strolling couples, and sharp-eyed matrons.
This was where rumors were born, confirmed, or slaughtered.
I waited at the Stanhope Gate.
I wore a new walking dress of deep sapphire blue wool, bought on the newly restored Linfield credit.
I kept my left hand ungloved, the cold biting into my knuckles, the diamond a beacon of submission.
Brian’s carriage arrived at precisely four o’clock.
He stepped out, wearing a dark gray overcoat perfectly tailored, a silver-headed cane in his hand.
He looked the part of the powerful, wealthy duke.
He offered his arm, and I placed my hand on his forearm.
Through the thick wool of his coat, I could feel the hard, rigid tension in his muscles.
We passed Lady Jones first, sitting in her open landau, wrapped in sable.
When she saw us, her eyes widened so dramatically, I thought they might pop out of her skull.
Brian patted my hand with his gloved fingers, an intimate, possessive gesture.
We walked further into the park.
The whispers followed us like a swarm of bees.
I could feel the weight of their stares pressing against my spine.
When we passed a group of young lords he knew, Brian stopped.
He introduced me simply by my first name, implying an intimacy that made my skin crawl.
He placed his hand on the small of my back to guide me around a puddle.
The heat of his palm burned through my wool coat and my corset, a searing, uncomfortable brand.
My heart hammered against my ribs.
I hated them, I hated the people staring at us, who judged my worth by the man standing next to me.
Brian told me I was breathing too fast, that I looked panicked.
I told him I was panicked, that this was a nightmare.
He commanded me to smile, to look up at him.
I forced my head up, stretching my lips into a smile, looking into his eyes.
Up close, the mask cracked.
His eyes weren’t acting, they were exhausted.
He was holding up the weight of his entire crumbling legacy, and it was crushing him.
For a split second, the noise of the park faded, the whispers disappeared.
I didn’t see the Duke of Clarendon.
I just saw Brian, a man drowning in ledgers and debt, holding onto me as tightly as I was holding onto him.
My smile faltered, softening into something real, a shared miserable acknowledgement.
We were both trapped.
The hand on my arm tightened slightly, not a possessive grip, but an anchor.
Would you have stayed in a fake relationship with a ruined man, or run before the entire lie collapsed around you both?
Part 3
Megan did not run.
She chose to stay, trading the certainty of poverty for the dangerous gamble of a fake engagement.
The road to that decision had begun six months prior, in a very different world.
Dropping to one knee before 200 staring guests, the Duke of Clarendon offered a diamond that caught the light of a thousand dying beeswax candles.
The resulting silence in the ballroom wasn’t empty, but heavy and suffocating, like wet wool shoved down Megan’s throat.
She was supposed to weep and nod.
Instead, looking at his perfectly manicured hands and smelling the stale lavender water that masked his sweat, she felt the bile rise.
“No,” she whispered.
The heat in the Jones ballroom was a physical weight.
It was late June and the hundreds of bodies pressed together beneath the vaulted frescoed ceiling generated a damp, stifling climate of their own.
Megan could smell the sour undertone of panic sweat beneath the heavy layers of rosewater musk and burning beeswax.
Her corset, tightly laced by her mother’s unforgiving hands 3 hours prior, felt less like a garment and more like an instrument of torture.
It bit into her lower ribs with every shallow breath she managed to pull into her lungs.
Her name was Megan Linfield and she was standing at the epicenter of a social earthquake, though the tremors hadn’t yet begun.
Brian Hastings, the Duke of Clarendon, was walking toward her.
The crowd parted for him, not out of respect, but out of a hungry voyeuristic anticipation.
They knew.
Everyone knew.
The whispers had been slithering through drawing rooms for a fortnight.
Clarendon is looking for a wife.
Clarendon has settled on the Linfield girl.
Clarendon is going to make an offer at the midsummer ball.
He was conventionally handsome, she supposed.
Tall with hair the color of wet sand and eyes that were perfectly symmetrical but held all the warmth of a cracked porcelain plate.
As he approached, she didn’t feel a flutter in her chest.
She felt a cold, hard knot of nausea settling in her stomach.
Her mother, standing half a step behind her right shoulder, pinched the soft flesh of her arm.
It was a vicious, silent command.
Smile.
Stand up straight, secure the inheritance.
Brian stopped in front of her.
Up close, the illusion of his perfection began to fray.
Megan noticed a faint sheen of grease on his forehead.
She saw the rigid, mechanical tension in his jaw.
He didn’t look like a man in love.
He looked like a man executing a tedious financial transaction.
He cleared his throat.
The sound was like a gunshot in the sudden, terrifying quiet of the room.
The violins had stopped playing.
She could hear the rustle of taffeta as women leaned forward, their fans paused mid-flutter.
“Miss Linfield,” Brian said.
His voice was a rich, baritone, practiced and hollow.
“Over the past season, I have come to admire your composure.
Your family’s standing is known to me, and I find myself in need of a duchess who can manage the rigors of Clarendon House.
It wasn’t a proposal.
It was a job interview.
Megan stared at his mouth as it moved.
The air in the room felt entirely depleted of oxygen.
She looked down at his boots, polished leather, flawlessly black, reflecting the light of the chandeliers.
She suddenly, vividly imagined those boots walking across her bedroom floor.
She imagined the heavy, suffocating weight of this man on top of her, the legal right he would have to her body, her thoughts, her entire existence.
She would be swallowed whole.
She would become a fixture in Clarendon House, much like a mahogany side table or an expensive vase.
He lowered himself to one knee.
A collective breathless sigh rippled through the crowd.
Megan heard her mother let out a small trembling gasp of pure triumph.
Brian produced a velvet box from his waistcoat.
He flipped it open.
The ring inside was grotesque, a massive square-cut diamond that looked heavy enough to snap her finger.
Megan Linfield, he said, and it was the first time he had ever used her Christian name.
It sounded unnatural in his mouth.
Will you do me the honor of becoming my wife?
She opened her mouth to say yes.
It was the only acceptable answer.
It was the answer her entire life had been orchestrated toward, but her body refused.
Her throat closed up.
Her hands began to shake a fine uncontrollable tremor that rattled the ivory ribs of her fan.
She looked into his eyes and saw nothing but entitled expectation.
He wasn’t looking at her.
He was waiting for his script to end.
The silence stretched.
It became brittle.
Someone at the back of the room coughed.
Megan.
Her mother hissed a venomous thread of sound meant only for her ears.
The smell of Brian’s lavender water hit the back of Megan’s throat, cloying and chemical.
Panic, hot and sharp, spiked in her blood.
She couldn’t breathe.
She couldn’t exist in this room for one more second.
If she said yes, the cage door would lock forever.
She took a step backward.
Her heel caught on the hem of her heavy silk gown and she stumbled just slightly stripping the moment of any tragic dignity.
I Her voice cracked.
It sounded small and pathetic.
She cleared her throat forcing the word past the barrier of her teeth.
No.
Brian blinked.
The mechanical rhythm of his expression halted.
I beg your pardon?
No, she said again louder this time.
Not brave, just desperate.
I cannot.
I am sorry your grace.
No.
She didn’t wait for his reaction.
She turned shoving past her paralyzed mother and practically ran toward the double doors.
She bumped into Lord Henry spilling his champagne down the front of his waistcoat.
She didn’t apologize.
She just kept walking her vision blurring her breath tearing through her throat in ragged gasps.
She heard the explosion of whispers behind her.
A cacophony of shock and outrage.
But she was already out the door tearing into the cool damp night air of London alone.
The carriage ride home was the longest journey of her life.
Six months later, winter arrived in London with a relentless, biting sleet.
It appears he spent the last decade using the Clarendon estate as collateral for a series of disastrous railway speculations.”
He paused, his jaw tightening.
“I am here to find out exactly how much of my inheritance is an illusion.”
She stared at him stunned.
Brian Hastings, the golden catch of the season, was sitting in a freezing, cabbage-scented waiting room facing bankruptcy.
Suddenly his mechanical proposal made terrifying sense.
He hadn’t been searching for a romantic partner.
His sudden proposal was a desperate bid to secure a massive financial lifeline.
He had targeted her specifically for her father’s vast liquid assets, completely unaware that the Linfield fortune was nothing more than an empty shell.
They were two desperate gamblers who had bet their entire futures on the other, only to realize both their hands were completely empty.
“I’m sorry,” she said.
And to her surprise, she meant it.
Brian looked up at her.
His eyes in the dim light of the coal fire weren’t cold porcelain anymore.
They were dark, tired, and deeply cynical.
“Are you?” he asked quietly.
If you had said yes, Miss Linfield, you would be shackled to a sinking ship.
Your rejection, it turns out, was the smartest financial decision either of us made this year.
She let out a breath, feeling the tension in her shoulders drop a fraction of an inch.
She looked down at her muddy boots.
I am here to beg Mr.
Taylor to stop the bank from seizing our house.
She admitted, her voice barely above a whisper.
The shame of saying it out loud burned in her chest, but she was too tired to hold up the mask anymore.
Brian didn’t pity her.
He didn’t offer a platitude.
He just nodded slowly, looking back at the dying embers.
Mud and ink, he murmured.
That is what’s left when the music stops playing, isn’t it?
She walked over to the wooden bench, and despite every rule of propriety she had ever been taught, she sat down on the far end of it.
The wood was hard and unyielding.
The smell of wet wool filled the space between them.
Yes, she said softly, listening to the sleet batter against the windowpane.
Mud and ink.
They sat there together in the quiet, ruined by different ledgers, waiting for the clerk to return.
The clerk finally returned 25 minutes later, smelling strongly of gin and roasted chestnuts.
He didn’t apologize.
He merely grunted, shaking the sleet from his bowler hat, and jerked his thumb toward the inner office.
Mr.
Taylor will see the duke first.
Brian didn’t stand immediately.
He looked at the clerk, then at Megan.
There was a tight fractional tightening around his eyes, a brief acknowledgement of the absurdity of precedence in a room that smelled like boiled cabbage.
He stood.
His joints popped audibly in the damp air.
He walked through the frosted glass door and it clicked shut behind him, leaving her alone with the gin-soaked clerk and the ticking of a rusted wall clock.
Her own meeting, when it finally happened, was brutally short.
Mr.
Taylor was a small man with ink-stained fingertips and a chronic cough.
He did not offer her tea.
He did not offer her a seat.
He simply slid her mother’s desperate letter back across his scarred mahogany desk.
The paper was already thumbed and dirty at the edges.
“30 days, Miss Linfield,” Taylor said.
He didn’t look up from his ledger.
The scratch of his dip pen against the thick paper was the loudest sound in the room.
“The bank has been exceedingly patient.
Your father’s speculative ventures in the South Americas were ill-advised.
The mortgage is called in.
30 days or the bailiffs arrive at Mayfair.”
She opened her mouth.
She wanted to beg.
She wanted to scream that her sister was 16, that her mother would rather die than face the workhouse.
But the smell of stale pipe tobacco and damp dust in Taylor’s office coated her tongue.
She realized with a cold, sinking clarity that tears had no currency here.
“I understand,” she said.
Her voice was entirely hollow.
“Good day, Miss Linfield.”
She walked out of the office and down the narrow, shrieking stairs.
The sleet had turned into a freezing, driving rain.
The sky above the narrow alleyway was the color of a bruised plum.
She stood under the meager awning of the haberdashery, pulling her thin cloak tighter around her shoulders.
The wet wool smelled like a wet dog.
She had no umbrella.
She had exactly three coins in her reticule, enough for a hackney halfway home.
Which meant she would walk the rest of the way in the freezing mud.
Miss Linfield.
Megan turned.
Brian was standing in the doorway.
He looked worse than he had upstairs.
The skin around his mouth was pale, drawn tight over the bone.
His eyes were entirely flat.
He looked like a man who had just watched his house burn to the ground.
He didn’t ask how her meeting went.
He didn’t have to.
He stepped out under the awning with her.
The wind whipped rain into their faces.
“My carriage is at the end of the street,” he said.
The words were clipped, bitten off by the cold.
“I will take you home.”
“That isn’t necessary, Your Grace.”
“Don’t be tedious,” he snapped.
It wasn’t cruel.
It was exhausted.
“You are shivering.
I am going to Mayfair.
Get in the carriage.”
She didn’t argue.
Pride required a warm coat, and she didn’t have one.
They walked in silence.
The cobblestones were slick with grease and horse manure.
Twice she nearly slipped.
He didn’t offer his arm.
She appreciated that.
She didn’t want to be touched.
His carriage was unmarked, a hired closed carriage rather than the crested ducal coach she had seen him in six months ago.
The interior was dark and smelled of damp leather and old cigar smoke.
Late January brought a freeze so deep the Thames began to develop a sluggish skin of ice.
He was holding up the weight of his entire crumbling legacy.
And it was crushing him.
For a split second, the noise of the park faded.
The whispers disappeared.
She didn’t see the Duke of Clarendon.
She just saw Brian, a man drowning in ledgers and debt, holding onto her as tightly as she was holding onto him.
Her smile faltered, softening into something real.
A shared miserable acknowledgement.
We are both trapped, she thought.
Brian’s gaze flickered.
The arrogant composed facade slipped just for a microsecond.
He looked down at her face.
Really looked at it.
And the hand on her arm tightened slightly.
Not a possessive grip, but an anchor.
10 more minutes, he said softly, the harshness gone from his voice.
Just 10 more minutes, Megan.
Then you can go home.
Are you all right?
The question slipped out before she could stop it.
It was a breach of their contract.
They weren’t supposed to care.
He didn’t answer immediately.
A gust of wind blew a few dead leaves across their path.
No, he said, finally his voice barely a breath.
But the bank will be open tomorrow.
And my creditors will read the Times.
That is all that matters.
He adjusted his arm, pulling her a fraction of an inch closer to his side to block the wind.
It was a practical gesture, strictly practical.
But as they walked the final stretch toward the park gates, the heavy square-cut diamond on her finger felt a little less cold.
It was still a shackle, yes, but for the first time she realized she wasn’t chained to the wall.
She was chained to him.
February arrived with a suffocating blanket of fog and a deluge of invitations.
The announcement in the Times had worked with the brutal, instantaneous efficiency of a guillotine.
The butcher delivered a side of beef without asking for coin.
The dressmakers bowed so low their noses nearly brushed the Aubusson rugs.
Her mother’s migraine vanished entirely, replaced by a frenetic, terrifying cheerfulness.
She paraded through the house like a conquering general, her sharp voice echoing off the newly polished wainscoting.
“The Duke of Clarendon,” she would say to anyone who would listen, her tongue lingering on the title like it was a spun sugar confection.
To her, the crisis was over.
To Megan, the crisis had simply moved indoors.
Their public appearances were a master class in psychological endurance.
Three nights a week, Brian and Megan performed their pantomime.
They attended the theater, sitting in his crimson draped box, his arm casually draped over the back of her chair.
They went to excruciatingly long dinner parties where the dining rooms were heated to a tropical swelter by roaring fires and hundreds of candles.
The society that had banished her now welcomed her back, though the welcome tasted distinctly metallic.
It was a Tuesday evening at Lord Smith’s townhouse.
The dining room smelled of roasted pheasant, heavy claret, and the sharp acidic scent of hot wax.
Megan sat to Brian’s right.
She was wearing a gown of dark green velvet that weighed at least 15 lb.
The corset beneath it was laced so tightly, she could only take in a fraction of the heavy food-scented air.
Lord Smith, a man with a face like a boiled pudding, and eyes that constantly scanned the room for weakness, leaned across his plate toward her.
“We were quite surprised, Miss Linfield,” Smith drawled, swirling his wine, “to see you return to the fold after your dramatic exit at Jones House.
One rarely sees a woman throw away a winning hand only to scramble back to the table.”
The table went dead silent.
The clinking of silver against porcelain stopped.
To her left, Megan felt Brian go completely still.
Her throat tightened.
A familiar hot panic spiked in her chest.
She looked at the dark red wine in her glass.
She could feel the eyes of 20 aristocrats burning into her skin.
They wanted her to flush.
They wanted her to stammer.
They wanted the blood sport they felt they had been denied at the Jones ball.
She opened her mouth, searching for a polite, self-deprecating deflection.
“Smith,” Brian said.
His voice was not loud.
It didn’t boom.
But the sheer freezing density of it dropped the temperature in the room by 10°.
Smith blinked, looking away from her and toward the head of the table.
“Your Grace.”
Brian slowly placed his silver fork down on the linen table cloth.
He didn’t look angry.
He looked profoundly lethally bored.
“My fiancee.”
Brian said the word dripping with an icy, deliberate precision.
“did not scramble.
She weighed her options.
She found the initial terms lacking.
She renegotiated.
A concept I assume you are familiar with, given the rumors surrounding your recent, somewhat desperate, land sales in Cornwall.”
Someone at the far end of the table choked on a piece of pheasant.
Smith’s boiled pudding face turned a mottled, furious purple.
He opened his mouth, then snapped it shut.
He looked down at his plate, entirely neutralized.
Brian picked up his wine glass, his face a mask of supreme indifference.
He didn’t look at Megan to claim credit.
He just took a slow sip.
Beneath the heavy linen table cloth, out of sight of the 20 staring vultures, Megan moved her hand.
She found his knee.
She pressed her fingers against the rough wool of his trousers in a silent, desperate thank you.
Brian didn’t flinch.
But a second later, she felt his hand drop beneath the table.
His long fingers found hers.
He didn’t hold her hand.
He just pressed his thumb hard into the center of her palm, a bruising, grounding pressure.
He left it there for the rest of the course.
That night, in the dark, swaying carriage ride home, the silence between them wasn’t empty.
It felt thick, charged.
The air smelled of the rain outside and the faint bitter scent of the brandy Brian had consumed.
“You didn’t have to do that,” Megan said quietly, staring out at the blurred gas lamps.
“Smith is a fool.
I could have managed him.”
“He was boring me,” Brian replied flatly.
March came in with relentless driving rain, marking the end of their six-month arrangement.
“I see,” she said.
Her voice sounded thin, reedy.
“I have drafted a statement for the times.”
Brian continued, reaching into his inner coat pocket and producing a folded piece of paper.
He walked over and placed it on the low table between them.
“It cites a mutual, amicable realization that our temperaments are unsuited for matrimony.
It takes the blame equally.
You will be free to seek another arrangement without carrying the full weight of the scandal.”
She stared at the white paper.
Unsuited for matrimony.
“Tomorrow,” he said quietly, “you will return the ring, and it will be done.”
She looked down at her left hand.
The massive diamond caught the weak gray light from the window.
She had hated it when he first put it on her finger.
Now the thought of taking it off made her stomach twist with a sickening violent panic.
If she took it off, she went back to being the commodity.
She went back to her mother’s silent resentment, to the suffocating parlor games, to waiting for another Brian Hastings to walk across a ballroom and purchase her.
But she wasn’t that girl anymore.
She had seen the scaffolding behind the illusion.
She had tasted the mud.
Brian watched her.
His jaw was locked tight.
He was waiting for her to agree to play her part, to finalize the transaction.
She reached out and picked up the paper from the table.
She didn’t unfold it.
She looked at it for a long second.
The rain lashed against the glass.
Then she ripped the paper in half.
The sound of the tearing parchment was shockingly loud in the quiet room.
Brian flinched.
His eyes widened slightly.
“What are you doing?”
She put the two halves together and ripped them again, then dropped the shredded pieces onto the table.
“I am breaking the contract,” she said.
She stood up.
Her knees were shaking, but she forced her spine to straighten.
Brian took a step toward her.
His brow furrowed in genuine confusion.
“Megan, the creditors are satisfied.
The danger is past.
You don’t have to pretend anymore.”
“I am not pretending,” she said.
The words tore out of her throat raw and unpolished.
“I pretended in the ballroom.
I pretended for my mother, but I am not pretending now.”
He stopped.
The mask of composure began to fracture.
You don’t know what you are saying.
I have nothing left.
The house is empty.
The Yorkshire lands are gone.
I am a duke in name only.
I cannot give you the life you were raised to expect.
I don’t want the life I was raised to expect, she shouted.
The volume of her own voice startled her.
I hate the ballrooms.
I hate the silk and the whispers and the suffocating cages.
You think I want a man who views me as an ornament?
I want the man in the freezing library.
I want the man who understands exactly how ugly the world is.
Brian stared at her.
The distance between them evaporated.
He looked at her as if she had just set the room on fire.
It’s ruin, Megan, he whispered his voice cracking.
If you stay with me, it isn’t a performance.
It’s just poverty.
It’s closing off wings of the house because we can’t afford coal.
It’s society turning their backs because we are too poor to be useful to them.
Good, she said fiercely.
She stepped closer to him.
She reached out and grabbed the lapels of his gray overcoat.
Her knuckles were white.
Let them turn their backs.
I want the empty house.
I want the dust because I want you.
Brian let out a sound that was half a groan, half a laugh.
The ice entirely shattered.
He reached down and caught her face in his hands, his thumbs tracing her cheekbones.
His eyes were wide, unguarded, and painfully bright.
You are a terrifying woman, he breathed.
I am an excellent negotiator, she corrected, her voice breaking.
I rejected the initial offer.
I am presenting a counter proposal.”
He didn’t answer with words.
He pulled her against him, burying his face in the crook of her neck.
His arms wrapped around her so tightly, her ribs ached a desperate crushing embrace that grounded her to the earth.
“Yes,” he whispered against her skin.
THE END
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