I Signed A Secret Contract To Give A Billionaire An Heir — But I Broke The Only Rule
Part 2
The physical toll of the pregnancy became a constant, low-grade hum in the background of my growing terror.
By the fourth month, my body softened and swelled beyond the reach of loose wool shawls.
The seamstress from the village darted her eyes away from my face, knowing exactly what I was.
But the physical discomfort was nothing compared to the psychological warfare raging in my head.
The child started moving like a trapped moth against my ribs.
I tried to label the sensation as biology and shove it into the darkest corner of my mind.
Then the flutters turned into decisive, sharp kicks.
I sat in the overgrown rose garden one crisp autumn afternoon, staring at a dead bush.
A sharp jab hit my lower abdomen.
My hand flew to my stomach, pressing against the tight mound of flesh just as another kick met my palm.
A breathless wave of affection washed over me, tasting like ash in my mouth.
I couldn’t afford to love something I had already sold to a man who locked himself in his study.
You shouldn’t be sitting out here.
Craig stood at the edge of the gravel path, his heavy riding coat caked in fresh mud.
I needed air.
He unclasped his own fur-lined driving cloak and draped it over my shoulders.
The wool held the deep, radiant heat of his body, smelling intensely of cold wind and sandalwood.
Winter arrived with a brutal, screaming ferocity that cut us off entirely from the rest of the world.
Kensington Manor became a frozen island, trapping us in its suffocating silence.
I was sitting by the library fire when the pain hit.
It wasn’t a flutter or a kick.
It was a vicious, seizing cramp that wrapped around my abdomen like a band of hot iron.
I doubled over, the poetry book dropping from my hands with a loud crack.
Seven months was too early.
My knees buckled and I slid from the chair to the floor.
The heavy oak doors slammed open.
Craig crossed the room in three massive strides, sliding his arms under my shoulders to lift my awkward body.
I’ve got you.
He carried me to the leather sofa, his hands shaking as he laid me down gently.
He knelt on the floor, grabbing my hand and pressing my knuckles to his forehead.
I’m here.
I writhed on the cushions for an hour, crushing his fingers every time the iron band tightened.
He never flinched, wiping the sweat from my brow with a linen handkerchief.
The pain eventually broke, leaving me exhausted and gasping for air.
It was false labor.
He let out a shuddering breath, keeping his grip on my hand.
The baby woke up from the trauma, rolling decisively against the right side of my abdomen.
I flattened his large palm against my tight dress right over the spot.
The baby kicked hard against the center of his hand.
A profound, shattering emotion broke across his scarred face.
He looked at me with raw, naked wonder.
When the contract dictates I must walk away forever, how could I leave the only two people I had ever truly loved?
Part 3
Beeswax and cold ink wafted from the heavy parchment.
£10,000 was enough to buy her father out of debtor’s prison, secure a quiet cottage by the sea, and completely purchase her soul.
All she had to do was lie in the dark with a monster swell with his child, and abandon the infant in the damp, cavernous corridors of Kensington Manor.
Signing it didn’t bring tears.
It only left her wondering if the dark stains would ever wash off her fingers.
The soot of London had a taste.
It coated the back of the throat like crushed charcoal, and old pennies settling deep into the lungs until every breath felt heavy.
Megan sat by the window of her boarding house, afraid wool shawl pulled tight across her shoulders, watching the rain smear the grime on the glass.
Her tea had gone cold an hour ago.
It tasted of nothing but boiled water and copper, but the warmth of the mug was the only heat in the room.
10,000.
The number sat in her mind, a heavy, impossible weight.
For 3 years, she had survived on three shillings a week, mending lace for women whose carriage horses ate better than she did.
Before the bankruptcy, before her father’s gambling tore the Hughes name to shreds, £10,000 was a respectable dowy.
Now it was a ransom.
The solicitor, a man named Mr. Davis, with eyes like polished flint and hands that smelled of stale tobacco, had laid it out with clinical precision yesterday afternoon.
“His grace requires an air,” Davis had said, not looking at her, but at the peeling wallpaper behind her head.
The circumstances of his life preclude a traditional courtship.
He requires a woman of good breeding, desperate enough to be discreet and practical enough to leave when the job is done.
Davis hadn’t used the word Men like Davis never did.
They hid behind words like arrangement and wardship and compensation.
She had laughed a short scraping sound.
And what happens to the child?
The child will be raised at Kensington Manor, provided for, titled.
You will surrender all maternal rights upon the severing of the cord.
Your existence will be entirely erased from their lives.
Now sitting in the damp chill of her room, she packed her single carpet bag.
It didn’t take long.
Three cotton dresses, a pair of worn leather boots with a hole in the left sole, a comb missing half its teeth.
She didn’t look back when she locked the door.
There was nothing to look back at.
The carriage sent for her was unmarked black lacquer gleaming in the drizzle.
The interior smelling intensely of leather and lavender.
The contrast to the street outside, the stench of rotting cabbage and wet horsehair, made her stomach turn over.
They drove for hours, leaving the choked streets of London for the sprawling, bruised sky of the countryside.
She fell asleep somewhere past the county line, her head knocking against the velvet squabs, dreaming of cold ink and faceless babies.
When the carriage finally lurched to a halt, the sky was the color of a fresh bruise, deep purple and angry black.
Kensington Manor estate loomed through the fog, a massive limestone beast with iron gates that shrieked as they were pushed open.
Mrs. Miller, the housekeeper, was waiting on the steps.
She was a tall woman, stiff as an ironing board, with eyes that assessed her in one sweeping, dismissive glance.
“Miss Hughes,” she said.
Her voice sounded like dry leaves scraping over stone.
“His grace is waiting in the library.”
Megan didn’t have a chance to wash the travel dust from her face.
She followed her through corridors that echoed with their footsteps, the air heavy with the scent of beeswax polish and old damp wool.
There were no portraits on the walls.
The house felt less like a home, and more like a morselum waiting for a body.
Solid oak doors guarded the entrance to the library.
Mrs. Miller opened them, stepped aside, and closed them firmly behind her.
The room was vast, lined with books that smelled of dry rot and leather.
A single fire burned in the hearth, throwing erratic snapping shadows across the Turkish rug.
He was standing by the window, his back to her.
Craig Kensington, the Duke of Kensington Manor.
He was taller than she expected, his shoulders broad under a tailored black coat.
He remained facing the glass, refusing to acknowledge her entrance.
“They tell me you didn’t haggle over the price, Miss Hughes,” he said.
His voice was a deep, rough baritone.
It sounded as though he hadn’t used it in days.
It scratched against the quiet of the room.
“There is no point in haggling when the price already buys everything I own,” she replied.
Her voice shook slightly.
She swallowed hard, hating herself for it.
“He finally turned.
He stayed near the edge of the firelight, but it was enough.
Half of his face was perfectly aristocratic, a sharp jaw, a high cheekbone, an eye the color of stormtossed water.
The remaining side of his visage was completely destroyed.
The fire in his youth hadn’t just burned the skin.
It had melted it, drawing the corner of his mouth into a permanent tight grimace, pulling the skin taut and shiny over his cheekbone.
Nothing remained of his left ear but scar tissue.
He watched her, waiting for the flinch.
She felt the instinctive animal urge to look away, to drop her eyes to the floor, but she forced herself to look at him at the pink and white ridges of scarred flesh, at the defensive, furious set of his shoulders.
It is an ugly thing, he said the words bitter on his tongue.
I have seen men starve to death in the gutters of cheapside your grace, she said her voice, flattening out the cynical edge returning.
Flesh is merely flesh.
Do we have an agreement or did you bring me all the way to Yorkshire to test my constitution?
A heavy silence fell.
The grandfather clock in the corner ticked.
Then Craig Kensington stepped out of the shadows.
The parchment awaits your signature on the table.
Read it.
Sign it.
The arrangement commences this evening.
The ink was barely dry before Megan felt the cold reality of what she had done seep into her bones.
£10,000 half deposited into an account bearing her name in London.
This morning the other half to be paid upon the successful delivery of a living, breathing child.
If she miscarried, she received nothing more.
If she died in childbirth, a terrifyingly common reality, the money went to her father’s creditors.
She sat in the room assigned to her.
It was massive, suffocatingly opulent.
The bed was a four-poster monster, draped in heavy crimson velvet.
The sheets were silk cold and slippery to the touch, smelling faintly of lavender and lie.
She hated them immediately.
They felt like water offering no warmth, no friction.
A maid had brought up a tray of food roast, pheasant buttered carrots, a thick slice of bread, and a glass of dark red wine.
She ate it mechanically, the rich food sitting like lead in her empty stomach.
Her body wasn’t used to butter or fresh meat.
It rebelled nausea twisting low in her gut, but she forced it down.
She needed to be strong.
She was a vessel now, a hired womb.
Outside the wind howled, rattling the glass in the heavy mahogany frames.
The isolation of Kensington Manor was a physical weight.
There were no sounds of carriages, no shouting street vendors, no neighbor coughing through the thin walls.
Just the wind and the relentless ticking of the clock on the mantelpiece.
At 10:00, the handle of her bedroom door clicked.
Her heart slammed against her ribs.
She was sitting in a sheer white cotton night gown Mrs. Miller had provided.
It covered her from neck to ankle, completely devoid of lace or ribbon.
The garment resembled burial clothes.
The door opened and Craig stepped in.
He carried a single oil lamp.
The flame turned down low.
He locked the door behind him.
The metallic slide of the bolt was the loudest sound in the world.
He didn’t look at her.
He set the lamp on the dresser and walked towards the fireplace, his back to her as he unbuttoned his waist coat.
“You may turn off the lamp if you wish,” he said, his voice clipped, devoid of any inflection.
“I don’t mind the light,” she lied.
Her palms were sweating.
She wiped them on the cold silk sheets.
“I do,” he replied sharply.
He approached the wick and extinguished the flame.
Pitch blackness swallowed the chamber except for the faint glow of the fireplace.
She heard the rustle of clothing dropping to the floor, the sound of his breathing heavy and uneven.
She lay back on the pillows, staring up at the invisible canopy above her.
She tried to detach herself.
“It is just biology,” she told herself.
“A transaction.
It means nothing.”
The springs groaned as he settled onto the bed.
He smelled of sandalwood, clean linen, and a faint sharp tang of medicinal soap.
The heat radiating off his body was intense in the freezing room.
They lay there in the dark for a long time.
The silence was agonizing.
It stretched tight, vibrating with awkwardness and unspoken dread.
He was as rigid as a board beside her.
“I don’t know how to do this,” she whispered.
The words slipped out before she could stop them.
Roar, pathetic, he exhaled a long, ragged sound.
You don’t have to do anything, Miss Hughes.
Just lie still.
The utter bleakness of his tone broke something in her.
Not her heart.
Her heart was hardened against men and their demands long ago, but her pride, the sheer indignity of it all.
She felt his hand brush against her arm in the dark.
His skin was calloused, his fingers trembling slightly.
The tremor shocked her.
Craig Kensington, the imposing Duke of Kensington Manor, was shaking.
He shifted his weight coming over her.
It was clumsy.
His knee knocked hard against her thigh, and she let out a sharp breath of pain.
“Apologies,” he muttered stiffly, freezing in place above her.
“It’s fine,” she managed to say, her jaw clenched.
There was no kissing, no soft words, just the rustle of cotton, the cold air hitting her skin, and the abrupt heavy weight of him settling between her legs.
It was uncomfortable, painful briefly before it settled into a dull, repetitive friction.
She stared into the blackness, digging her fingernails into her own palms to anchor herself to the present, refusing to float away.
She focused on the sounds, the creek of the bed frame, the harsh catch in his breath, the slick sound of skin against skin.
He kept his face turned away from her, his forearm resting across her collarbone, bearing his own weight so he didn’t crush her.
The small mercy felt out of place during such a sterile transaction.
It was over in minutes.
He pulled away with a sharp gasp, rolling onto his side of the mattress with a heavy thud.
The silence rushed back in thicker and heavier than before.
He didn’t stay.
She heard him fumbling in the dark for his clothes.
The strike of a match illuminated the room briefly as he lit the oil lamp.
He looked disheveled, his dark hair falling across the scarred side of his face.
He didn’t look toward the bed.
Good night, Miss Hughes,” he said to the wall.
He unlocked the door and was gone, leaving her alone with the smell of sandalwood and the cold, damp patch on the silk sheets.
She rolled over, pulled the heavy velvet duvet up to her chin, and finally let out the breath she had been holding.
Her body achd a dull, foreign soreness.
One night down.
How many more until the seed took root?
How many more times would she have to be a ghost in her own body?
Twenty-one days slipped by in a haze of damp weather and quiet isolation.
Her days were entirely her own, though that felt more like a punishment than a privilege.
The estate was massive, but she was confined to the east wing.
She walked the long galleries, running her fingers over the dusty spines of encyclopedias, staring out the mullion windows at the moors that stretched like a soden brown ocean.
She never saw Craig during the day.
He took his meals in his study and she took hers in a small drafty breakfast room.
He only came to her at night.
The routine became deeply ingrained.
Yet it never grew less awkward.
The click of the door at 10:00, the blowing out of the lamp, the mechanical fumbling union in the dark.
But as the days bled into weeks, the edges of the transaction began to fray.
It started with small things.
One night it was bitterly cold, the fire in her great having died out hours before.
When Craig climbed into bed, she was shivering uncontrollably, her teeth clicking together despite her clamped jaw.
He stopped midmotion.
You’re freezing.
The draft?
She managed to get out.
He didn’t say anything, but he shifted.
Instead of the usual quick detached routine, he pulled the heavy blankets up around her shoulders, tucking the edges under her sides to trap the heat.
Then he lay down beside her, wrapping his arm around her waist and pulling her back flush against his chest.
She stiffened entirely, her breath catching in her throat.
They had never touched outside of the act itself.
“Relax,” he murmured his voice, a low rumble against her spine.
I’m only sharing my body heat.
He made no further advances during those hours.
They just lay there perfectly still.
She felt the steady, powerful thud of his heart against her shoulder blade.
She smelled the crisp scent of his soap mixed with the faint metallic smell of his skin.
The closeness felt frighteningly personal.
It was easier to be an object a vessel.
Being treated like a human being who was simply cold made the lines of their contract blur.
She didn’t sleep.
She stayed awake listening to his breathing.
Slow, feeling the tension drain from his large frame as he fell asleep behind her.
In sleep, his guard dropped.
His hand resting on her stomach twitched.
She placed her own hand lightly over his.
She didn’t know why she did it.
It was a stupid, foolish impulse.
But his fingers felt warm, and for the first time in years, she didn’t feel entirely alone in the dark.
The next night, the dynamic shifted again.
He came in late.
He smelled faintly of brandy, the sharp alcohol scent cutting through the usual sandalwood.
When he blew out the lamp, he missed the bedside table, knocking a glass of water to the floor.
It shattered with a loud crash.
“Damn it!”
He hissed in the dark.
“Leave it,” she said, sitting up.
“I’ll tell the maid tomorrow.”
He stood by the bed, a dark silhouette against the faint moonlight bleeding through the curtains.
“He didn’t move to undress.
I went to London today,” he said suddenly.
The brandy had loosened his tongue, stripping away the formal clinical distance he usually maintained.
“I went to my club.
I haven’t been in 4 years.
She pulled the covers up over her chest, waiting.
A man I went to Oxford with was there.
He looked at me, Megan.
It was the first time he had used her given name.
It sounded strange in his mouth, heavy.
He looked at me and then he looked away down at his shoes.
The sight of my scars made him sick.
Couldn’t even offer me a drink.
He laughed a harsh, jagged sound that scraped the inside of her ears.
£10,000 buys a womb, but it cannot buy a friend who will look me in the eye.
People are cowards, Craig, she said, surprising herself by using his name.
People are terrified of anything that highlights their vulnerability.
He closed the distance to the mattress.
Are you frightened of my appearance?
Not in the slightest.
You pity me.
It was an accusation.
I pity your tailor having to fit coats over those stiff shoulders of yours.
She shot back the cynical defense mechanism flaring up.
I do not pity a man who lives in a house the size of a village and drinks 60-year-old brandy.
He stopped.
The silence hung between them tense and vibrating.
And then a sound she hadn’t expected.
He chuckled.
It was a rusty, unused sound, but it was real.
He sat on the edge of the bed.
The mattress dipped.
She could feel his heat.
“You are a remarkably abrasive woman, Megan.
You didn’t hire me for my charm.”
He reached out in the dark.
His fingers brushed against her jaw.
She flinched, not from fear, but from the sudden shocking gentleness of the touch.
He traced the line of her cheekbone, his thumb brushing over her lower lip.
“No,” he said softly.
“I suppose I didn’t.
She swallowed hard the copper taste returning to her mouth.
The written agreement had been a protective barrier.
The money was a shield.
But sitting here in the dark with a broken man touching her face as if she were made of glass, the shields were cracking.
She reached up and caught his wrist.
She meant to push his hand away to remind him of the terms.
To maintain the cold distance they needed to survive this.
Instead, her hand slid up his arm past his elbow until her fingers found his face.
He froze entirely.
His entire frame locked up in sheer tension.
Her fingers traced the smooth, unblenmished skin of his right cheek.
Then, slowly, deliberately, she moved her hand across the bridge of his nose to the left side.
A strangled gasp escaped him as he attempted to retreat.
Don’t hold still,” she whispered fiercely.
Her fingertips met the raised, jagged ridges of the burn scars.
The skin here was tight, shiny, and unnatural.
It felt like melted wax.
She didn’t pull back.
She let her fingers map the ruin of his face, tracing the knot of tissue where his ear used to be the tight pull of his jaw.
The movement carried no amorous intent.
It was a grounded human curiosity.
It was her telling him without words that she was not the man at his club.
She would not look at her shoes.
He was trembling violently now.
A shudder racked his entire frame, and he dropped his head, pressing his ruined cheek into the palm of her hand.
He didn’t cry.
Men like Craig didn’t cry, but the sound that tore from his throat was more agonizing than a sobb.
They didn’t fulfill the contract that night.
He simply lay beside her, holding onto her hand like a drowning man clutching a piece of driftwood until the gray light of dawn crept over the Yorkshire moors, exposing all their fractures.
The nausea didn’t arrive with a delicate ladylike swoon.
It hit her like a physical blow dragging her from sleep, with the taste of old copper and bile thick in her throat.
She barely made it to the porcelain basin on the wash stand before her stomach violently emptied itself.
The chamber was freezing.
She knelt on the hardwood floor, her knees aching against the unyielding oak, gripping the edges of the basin with white knuckles.
Sweat beaded on her forehead, chilling instantly in the drafty air.
Mrs. Miller found her there an hour later, still shivering on the floor in her night gown.
She didn’t gasp.
She didn’t offer a soothing hand to her back.
She simply looked down at her, her face an unreadable mask of pressed linen and deep lines.
“I shall send for Dr. Evans,” she said, her voice dry as dust.
“Dr. Evans smelled of peppermint and stale pipe smoke.
His hands were cold when he pressed them to her abdomen, his examination brisk and devoid of any human warmth.”
He asked her three questions about her cycle, clicked his tongue against his teeth, and closed his leather medical bag with a decisive snap.
“You are with child Miss Hughes,” he announced to the far wall.
“Approximately 6 weeks along, I will inform his grace.
You are to rest.
Eat plain foods, boiled chicken, broth.”
No excitement.
He left the room.
The heavy oak door clicked shut.
She sat on the edge of the massive bed, staring at her bare feet.
6 weeks £10,000 half a fortune earned, a heavy, suffocating weight dropped onto her chest.
She placed a trembling hand over her flat stomach.
There was a stranger growing inside her, a parasite made of her desperation and Craig’s grief.
She waited to feel a spark of maternal joy, a protective instinct.
Nothing came, just a cold, calculating terror.
That night at 10:00, the door did not open.
She lay in the dark, the fire dying in the great listening.
The grandfather clock down the hall chimed the quarter hour, then the half, then 11.
He wasn’t coming.
The realization hit her with a strange twisting pang.
Their contract dictated that the nocturnal visits were solely for the purpose of conception.
The purpose had been fulfilled.
The transaction was moving to its next passive phase.
He had no reason to return to this room.
She should have felt relieved.
She had her body back.
She wouldn’t have to endure the awkward fumbling weight of him in the dark.
she wouldn’t have to navigate the terrifying intimacy that had begun to sprout like a weed between the floorboards of their arrangement.
But as the wind howled around the stone turrets of Kensington Manor, rattling the glass in the mullion windows, the bed felt impossibly large.
The silk sheets, which had finally begun to hold a sliver of their shared heat, were freezing again.
She rolled onto her side, pulling the heavy velvet duvet up to her ears.
She squeezed her eyes shut, furious with herself.
She was mourning the loss of a ghost.
She was missing the warmth of a man who bought her.
“You are a fool, Megan,” she whispered to the empty room.
The sound of her own voice was pathetic.
It offered no comfort.
3 days passed.
She did not see Craig.
She ate her boiled chicken, which tasted like wet paper, and threw it up into the porcelain basin.
She walked the endless gray corridors of the east wing, feeling the chill of the damp stone seep into her bones.
On the fourth afternoon, the library door was open.
She hadn’t ventured past the east wing since her arrival, but the isolation was clawing at her sanity.
She needed to see a face that wasn’t Mrs. Miller’s pinched scowl.
She walked softly, her worn leather boots, making no sound on the Turkish rugs.
Craig was sitting behind the massive mahogany desk.
The afternoon light, weak and watery, slanted through the window, catching the dust moes dancing in the air.
It also caught his face.
She had only ever seen him in the dark or in the flickering forgiving light of a dying fire.
Here, in the harsh gray light of day, the ruin of his left side was undeniable.
The fire had taken no pity.
The scars were violently pink and shiny, pulling the corner of his eye downward in a perpetual droop.
He was staring at a ledger, a pen idle in his hand.
He looked exhausted.
The dark circles under his good eye were the color of bruised plums.
She stepped into the doorway.
The floorboard groaned beneath her weight.
His head snapped up.
For a fraction of a second before the heavy iron gates of his composure slammed shut, she saw raw naked panic in his eyes.
He dropped the pen.
It left a dark splatter of ink across the white page.
“Miss Hughes,” he said, his voice rough.
He immediately turned his face, presenting only his right profile to her.
It was an instinctive protective flinch.
“I apologize for the intrusion.
your grace,” she said, her voice deliberately flat.
“I was looking for a book.
There are 3,000 books in this room,” he said, not looking at her.
“Take what you want and leave.”
The dismissal stung a sharp slap of reality.
“The tentative bridge they had built in the dark had evaporated in the light.”
She walked over to the nearest shelf, grabbed a leatherbound volume.
At random it turned out to be a treatise on agricultural crop rotation and clutched it to her chest.
“Dr. Evans tells me the arrangement is progressing successfully,” Craig said to the window.
His tone was entirely business.
A merchant discussing a shipment of wool.
“It is,” she said.
Her stomach rolled, though, whether from the morning sickness or the coldness in his voice, she couldn’t tell.
You will have whatever you need.
Mrs. Miller will adjust your diet.
A seamstress will be brought in from the village next month to alter your gowns.
If you require anything else, speak to her.
I require you to look at me, she thought.
I require you to acknowledge that I am a human being, not a brood mare.
I understand, she said aloud.
She turned on her heel and walked out.
The heavy oak door clicked shut behind her, severing the connection completely.
By the fourth month, the secret could no longer be hidden under loose wool shaws.
Her body, which had been angular and sharp from years of scraping by on tea and crusts, softened and swelled.
The seamstress from the village, a nervous woman who smelled of garlic, and fear let out her bodesses, her eyes constantly darting away from her face.
Everyone in the house knew what she was.
The hired vessel, the fallen gentle woman.
The physical discomfort was a constant lowgrade hum.
Her lower back achd with a dull throb.
Her breasts were swollen and tender, chafing against the stiff linen of her undergarments.
But the physical changes were nothing compared to the psychological warfare raging in her head.
The child was moving.
It started as a flutter, like a trapped moth batting against her ribs.
She tried to ignore it.
She tried to mentally box the sensation up, labeling it biology, and shoving it into the darkest corner of her mind.
But then the flutters turned into decisive, sharp kicks.
Hello, the kicks seemed to say, “I am here.
I am real.”
She sat in the overgrown, neglected rose garden at the back of the estate.
It was late autumn now.
The air was crisp, smelling of rotting leaves and damp earth.
She was wrapped in a heavy woolen cloak, staring at a dead blackened rose bush.
Suddenly, a sharp jab hit her lower abdomen.
She gasped, dropping her book onto the stone bench.
Her hand flew to her stomach, pressing against the tight mound of flesh.
Another kick right against her palm.
A terrifying, breathless wave of affection washed over her.
It tasted like ash in her mouth.
She couldn’t afford this.
She couldn’t afford to love something she had already sold.
She had signed the paper.
The ink was dry.
This child belonged to the man who locked himself in his study.
The man who hadn’t spoken more than 10 words to her in 3 months.
“You shouldn’t be sitting out here.
The stone is freezing.”
She jumped, whipping her head around.
Craig was standing at the edge of the gravel path.
He wore a heavy riding coat, his boots caked in fresh mud.
The wind was whipping his dark hair across his forehead.
“I needed air,” she said defensively, her hand still resting protectively on her stomach.
He looked at her hand, his gaze dropped to the swell of her belly, hidden beneath the cloak, but undeniable in its shape.
A muscle in his unscarred jaw twitched.
“You will catch a chill,” he said, taking a step closer.
He hesitated, then unclasped his own heavy furlined driving cloak.
He stepped forward and draped it over her shoulders.
The wool was heavy, holding the deep, radiant heat of his body.
It smelled intensely of horsehair cold wind and his familiar sandalwood soap.
Thank you, she murmured, pulling the collar tight.
He didn’t leave.
He stood awkwardly by the stone bench, looking out over the dying garden.
They are tearing down the old stables tomorrow, he announced suddenly.
I am having them rebuilt, larger, better ventilation.
It was a mundane piece of information, but it was the longest sentence he had spoken to her since the night the glass shattered in her room.
For the new horses, she asked.
For him.
Craig nodded toward her stomach.
A boy needs proper mounts.
The old stables are rotting.
Him?
He had already decided it was a boy.
An air.
A spark of her old cynical anger flared.
And if it is a girl, Craig frowned the scarred side of his face, pulling into a tight grimace.
The contract stipulates an heir, a male.
The contract dictates I carry your child.
I cannot control the biology of what I am baking in here.
Craig, she snapped, gesturing to her belly.
If it is a girl, what then?
Do you throw her back?
Demand a refund.
He flinched as if she had struck him.
The anger in his eyes was instant and dark.
Do not speak of it like that, as if it is a transaction of livestock.
That is exactly what it is.
She pushed herself up from the bench, the extra weight making her clumsy.
She glared at him, her breathing shallow.
You bought my womb.
You paid Mr. Davis.
Do not pretend this is a noble endeavor.
You bought a child because no woman would marry a man who hides in a drafty castle, feeling sorry for himself.
The silence that followed was violently loud.
The wind seemed to stop.
Craig’s face went entirely white.
the burn scars standing out in stark, horrific relief.
His chest heaved once, twice.
He looked at her with a devastation so profound it ripped the breath from her lungs.
“You are right,” he whispered.
His voice was completely hollow.
“I bought a child because it was the only way I would ever leave something behind in this world that wasn’t ruined.”
He turned and walked away, his boots crunching heavily on the gravel.
She stood in the freezing garden, enveloped in his warm cloak, the baby kicking furiously against her ribs.
She clamped a hand over her mouth, a jagged, ugly sob tearing up her throat.
She had wanted to hurt him to maintain the distance between them.
But watching him walk away, his shoulders bowed under the weight of her words, she realized the terrifying truth.
The wall was gone.
She was bleeding for him.
Winter arrived with a brutal, screaming ferocity.
By the seventh month, Kensington Manor was entirely cut off from the rest of Yorkshire by snow drifts that reached the lower windows.
The estate was a frozen island, trapping them all in its suffocating silence.
The heaviness of the child was agonizing now.
She couldn’t sleep.
She couldn’t find a comfortable position.
Her feet were swollen, the worn leather of her boots cutting into her ankles.
The skin of her stomach felt stretched so tight she feared it might tear like cheap parchment.
She was confined largely to the library, as it was the warmest room in the house.
The massive hearth burned through a cord of wood a day.
Craig, avoiding her since their argument in the garden, had taken to working in a small, drafty solar on the second floor.
They were ghosts haunting the same hallways, orbiting each other in agonizing silence.
It happened on a Tuesday during the worst of the blizzards.
She was sitting in the highbacked leather chair by the fire, reading a book of poetry she didn’t care about when the pain hit.
It wasn’t a flutter.
It wasn’t a kick.
It was a vicious seizing cramp that started at the base of her spine and wrapped around her abdomen like a band of hot iron.
She gasped the book dropping from her hands and hitting the floor with a loud crack.
She doubled over, gripping the arms of the chair, her knuckles turning white.
The pain held for a long, terrifying minute, squeezing the air from her lungs before slowly releasing its grip.
She sat panting, sweat breaking out across her forehead despite the drafty room.
It’s too early, she thought, panic rising like bile in her throat.
7 months is too early.
She tried to stand to go find Mrs. Miller, but another contraction hit.
This one was sharper, digging deep into her pelvis.
She cried out a raw animal sound that echoed off the high ceilings of the library.
Her knees buckled and she slid from the chair to the floor, landing hard on the Turkish rug.
The heavy oak doors of the library slammed open.
Craig stood in the doorway, his coat off his shirt sleeves rolled up to the elbows.
He must have heard her scream.
He took one look at her, crumpled on the floor, her hands clutching her swollen stomach, and the blood drained from his face.
“Megan,” he crossed the room in three massive strides, dropping to his knees beside her.
He didn’t hesitate.
He didn’t worry about boundaries or contracts.
He slid his arms under her shoulders and behind her knees, lifting her heavy, awkward body effortlessly into his chest.
I’ve got you,” he said, his voice a low, frantic rumble.
“I’ve got you.”
He carried her to the leather sofa, laying her down gently.
His hands were shaking.
He pulled a blanket from the back of a chair and threw it over her.
“Is it the child?”
he demanded, his eyes wide, fixed on her face.
He wasn’t turning his scars away.
He didn’t care about the light.
He only cared about her.
It hurts, she gasped as a third wave tightened her stomach.
Craig, it’s too early.
It’s too early.
Breathe, he ordered, though his own breathing was ragged.
He knelt on the floor beside the sofa.
I am sending a man for Dr. Evans.
Through the snow, he’ll freeze to death before he hits the main road.
She gripped his forearm.
His muscles were corded steel beneath the fine linen of his shirt.
Don’t send anyone out there.
Then what do I do?
The desperation in his voice was absolute.
The powerful Duke of Kensington Manor reduced to a terrified man on his knees.
Just stay.
She managed to choke out as the pain peaked.
Just stay here.
He didn’t pull away.
He shifted closer, sitting on the edge of the rug, and did something that shattered the last remaining pieces of her cynical armor.
He took her hand, lacing his thick, calloused fingers through hers, and pressed her knuckles to his forehead.
“I’m here,” he whispered into her skin.
“I am right here.”
The pain gripped her for an hour.
She writhed on the leather sofa, crushing Craig’s hand every time the iron band tightened.
He didn’t flinch.
He used his free hand to wipe the sweat from her brow with a linen handkerchief, murmuring low, soothing nonsense words, the kind you use to calm a panicked horse.
“You are doing perfectly,” he kept saying.
“You are so strong, Megan, so brave.”
No one had ever called her brave.
Desperate yes calculating certainly but brave.
As the grandfather clock struck four, the pains began to space out.
The iron band loosened.
The seizing cramps shifted back into a dull, manageable ache.
She lay exhausted against the cushions, her hair damp with sweat clinging to her face.
Her breath hitched in her chest.
“It’s stopping,” she whispered.
Craig lifted his head.
He looked wrecked.
His eyes were bloodshot, his hair wildly disheveled.
“Are you sure?”
She nodded slowly, placing her free hand on her stomach.
The tight, rock-hard sensation of the contraction was gone.
The baby was still “Braxton Hicks, the village women call them,” she murmured her voice raspy.
“False labor, the body practicing.”
Craig let out a shuddering breath, dropping his head back against the edge of the sofa.
He closed his eyes.
Christ, I thought.
He couldn’t finish the sentence.
They stayed like that for a long time.
The only sound, the crackle of the fire, and their synchronized, exhausted breathing.
He still hadn’t let go of her hand.
Slowly, the baby woke up from the trauma, a small tentative flutter near her ribs.
Then, a decisive, strong roll against the right side of her abdomen.
Without thinking, she took Craig’s hand, the one that wasn’t gripping hers, and pulled it up from his side.
He opened his eyes, confused, as she flattened his large palm against the tight fabric of her dress, right over the spot where the baby was pushing.
He stopped completely still.
A second later, the baby kicked hard, right against the center of his palm.
Craig gasped.
It was a sharp tearing sound.
His eye widened, staring down at his hand as if it belonged to someone else.
The baby kicked again, dragging a heel across his palm.
A profound, shattering emotion broke across Craig’s face.
The harsh lines of his jaw softened.
The bitterness that usually clouded his gaze washed away, leaving behind a raw, naked wonder.
He didn’t look like a monster.
He didn’t look like a scarred duke.
He looked like a father.
Slowly, reverently, he moved his hand, tracing the curve of her stomach.
His thumb brushed over the apex of the swell.
He is strong, Craig whispered a tremor in his voice.
“She,” she corrected softly.
He looked up at her, their faces inches apart.
The firelight caught the tears swimming in his eye.
He didn’t argue.
He didn’t mention the contract.
She, he agreed, his voice cracking.
He slid his hand up from her stomach, tracing the line of her ribs, her collarbone, until his rough fingers cuped her jaw.
The touch was agonizingly tender.
She stopped breathing.
He leaned in.
It wasn’t the fumbling clinical dark of her bedroom.
It was the bright, harsh light of the fire.
She saw every scar, every flaw, every piece of his ruined face, and she realized with a terrifying sinking certainty that it was the most beautiful face she had ever seen.
His lips met hers.
It was a desperate, searching kiss.
It tasted of salt and fear, and an overwhelming, crushing longing.
She kissed him back, tangling her free hand in the hair at the nape of his neck, pulling him closer until there was no space left between his chest and hers.
For a moment, the world outside the snowstorm ceased to exist.
There was no contract.
There was no £10,000.
There was only the smell of sandalwood, the heat of the fire, and the man holding her together.
But as they finally broke apart, gasping for air, his forehead resting against hers, reality rushed back in with the freezing draft under the door.
2 months.
In 2 months, she would give birth to this child.
And according to the ink on the paper lying in Mr. to Davis’s vault the moment the cord was severed.
She was to pack her bags, take her money, and walk out of Kensington Manor forever.
Dead to them, and they to her.
She closed her eyes, the tears finally spilling hot and fast down her cheeks.
She had sold her child, and now, God help her, she had fallen in love with the buyer.
The thaw came in March.
It didn’t arrive with chirping birds and gentle sunshine, but with a violent, muddy reckoning.
The snow banks that had buried Kensington Manor collapsed into thick gray slush, turning the moors into a treacherous bog.
The air smelled of wet rot and unearthed worms.
Inside the house, the ice between Craig and Megan had melted just as thoroughly, leaving behind a mess she didn’t know how to navigate.
He no longer avoided her.
The nocturnal silent visits of the autumn were replaced by a devastating constant presence.
He took his meals in the library with her.
He sat in the wing back chair by the fire, reading aloud from the agricultural journals, his rough baritone vibrating against the stone walls.
He stopped turning his ruined profile away when she looked at him.
It was absolute torture.
Every time he poured her tea, every time his hand brushed her shoulder as he passed behind her chair, the reality of the contract sitting in a London vault twisted the knife in her gut.
He was building a domestic life on top of a landmine.
The village road is clear, he announced one damp Tuesday.
He was standing by the window, watching the rain pummel the muddy courtyard.
I have sent a rider to York.
He is to fetch a cradle.
Mahogany, I think.
She sat by the fire, a piece of plain linen in her lap that she was supposed to be hemming into a swaddling cloth.
Her needle was idle.
Her fingers were too swollen to grip it properly.
“Craig,” she said.
The name tasted like ash.
He kept his gaze averted from her.
His shoulders went rigid beneath his charcoal coat.
He knew what she was going to say.
They had been playing this agonizing game of avoidance for a month.
Craig, you must stop this.
She forced the words out.
Her voice was flat, ruthlessly stripping away the warmth of the room.
You are acting as though I am your wife.
He slowly turned.
The watery gray light caught the shiny tort skin of his scars.
You are carrying my child.
I am a hired vessel.
she corrected, digging her fingernails into her heavy, aching thighs.
The contract is exceptionally clear.
In four weeks, I will give birth.
When the cord is cut, my rights are severed.
I will take my £5,000, and I will get into a carriage, and I will never see you or this child again.”
His jaw clenched.
The muscle on his unscarred side ticked rapidly.
I can tear the contract up.
And then what?
She laughed, the sound jagged and cruel.
She had to be cruel.
If she let the cynical armor crack completely, she would bleed to death right here on the Turkish rug.
You make me your mistress.
You put me up in a cottage in the village so I can peek through the hedges to see my own daughter.
I would never.
Or do you marry me?
She stood up.
It was an ungraceful, lumbering movement.
Her back screamed in protest.
She pointed a shaking finger at him.
Do you drag the ruined, bankrupt daughter of a cheap-side gambler to the altar?
Think of your pride, Craig.
Think of your precious lineage.
You hired me because I was a secret.
You cannot make a secret your duchess.
He crossed the room, his boots, leaving faint damp tracks on the floorboards.
He stopped inches from her, looming over her swollen frame.
He didn’t look angry.
He looked entirely fundamentally exhausted.
“You think my pride survived the fire, Megan?”
he asked softly.
He reached out his calloused thumb, tracing the dark, bruised circle under her eye.
“My pride burned away a long time ago.
What is left is just a man who is terrified of the empty house you are going to leave behind.
She squeezed her eyes shut, a hot tear slipping down her cheek and hitting his thumb.
Don’t.
Please do not make me love you.
It will kill me to leave if you make me love you.
Then don’t leave, he whispered, pressing his forehead against hers.
She pulled back, stumbling a step away.
The scent of sandalwood and wet wool was suffocating.
The ink is dry, Craig.
We made a bargain.
We are both monsters for making it, and we must both live with it.
She turned and walked out of the library, dragging her heavy body up the stairs to her freezing room.
She locked the door, crawled under the silk sheets, and wept until her throat bled, mourning a life she had sold before it even began.
She arrived in the dead of night, heralded by a crack of thunder that rattled the leaded glass in its frames.
There was no false labor this time.
Her water broke in a hot, rushing flood across the mattress, instantly chilling her skin.
The pain followed seconds later, a savage, tearing agony that felt as though her pelvis were being pried apart by hot iron crowbars.
She screamed.
It wasn’t a ladylike gasp.
It was a guttural anim animalistic shriek that tore the lining of her throat.
Mrs. Miller was there within minutes, her hair in a strict gray braid down her back, a lit candalabra in her hand.
For the first time since she arrived at Kensington Manor, her mask of stern disapproval cracked.
She took one look at the blood soaking the sheets, dropped the candalabra onto the dresser, and yelled for the maids.
The room became a blur of frantic motion.
basins of scalding water, stacks of rough linen towels, the overwhelming metallic stench of fresh blood, and the sharp bite of lie soap.
Dr. Evans is in York.
Mrs. Miller muttered her hands pressing down hard on her knees.
The storm washed out the bridge.
You must do this without him, Miss Hughes.
Push.
She couldn’t breathe.
The contractions were crashing over her like ocean waves, dragging her under before she could fill her lungs.
She clamped her teeth down on the edge of a folded towel to keep from biting through her own tongue.
The bedroom door slammed open.
Craig stood there, his hair wild, his shirt unbuttoned at the collar.
He looked frantically around the room, his eye locking on the blood soaked linens.
Get out your grace.
Mrs. Miller barked her voice shrill with panic.
This is no place for a man.
It is not decent.
Craig ignored her.
He crossed the room, shoved a terrified maid out of his way, and knelt at the head of the bed.
He didn’t look at the blood.
He didn’t look at Mrs. Miller.
He looked at her, Megan.
He said, his voice cutting through the ringing in her ears.
It’s tearing me apart.
She sobbed blindly, reaching for him.
He caught her hand intertwining their fingers, anchoring his elbows on the mattress.
“Squeeze my hand.
Break my fingers if you have to.
Do not let go.”
“Your grace, I must insist.”
Mrs. Miller started.
“If you speak another word to me, Miller, I will throw you out the window.”
Craig snarled without taking his eyes off her face.
Tell her what to do.
For the next 4 hours, Craig Kensington, the Duke of Kensington Manor, stayed on his knees.
The room smelled of sweat and fear and the undeniable primal scent of biology breaking open.
She writhed.
She cursed him.
She cursed the contract.
She cursed her father.
Craig took it all.
When she pushed her fingernails, dug half moons into the thick skin of his palms, drawing blood.
He never flinched.
He wiped her face with a cool cloth, murmuring low, steady words that she couldn’t comprehend, but clung to like a lifeline.
The head is crowning.
Mrs. Miller shouted over a clap of thunder.
“One more Miss Hughes push!”
She pulled her chin to her chest, squeezing Craig’s hand until the bones in his fingers ground together and gave one final earthshattering push.
The pressure broke.
The blinding agony vanished, replaced by a hollow, strange emptiness.
She collapsed back onto the pillows, gasping for air, her vision swimming with black spots.
Then a sound cut through the heavy breathing in the room.
A thin, wet, furious cry.
A girl, Mrs. Miller announced, her voice trembling slightly.
A healthy girl.
Craig’s head whipped around.
She tried to lift herself up, straining to see past the mountain of bloody towels.
The maid brought over a pair of heavy steel scissors sterilized in the boiling water.
They gleamed in the candle light.
The cord, Mrs. Miller, the maid whispered.
The words hit her like a physical blow.
Upon the severing of the cord, you will surrender all maternal rights.
You will be dead to them.
She watched Mrs. Miller, take the scissors.
The metal opened with a sharp scraping sound.
I refuse.
She croked out her voice, a broken rasp.
She tried to reach forward, but her muscles were completely spent.
She couldn’t move her arms.
Wait, snip.
The sound was tiny, but it echoed like a gunshot in her head.
The contract was executed.
The bargain was complete.
Mrs. Miller wrapped the screaming bloody infant in a clean linen towel.
She didn’t bring her to her.
She didn’t even look at her.
Following the strict orders given to her months ago, she turned and carried the child toward the door.
“Let me see her.”
She pleaded, the tears mixing with the sweat on her face.
“Just once, please.”
Mrs. Miller paused at the door, her back to Megan.
It is better this way, Miss Hughes, for a clean break.
She stepped into the hallway and closed the door behind her.
The void that opened up inside her was absolute.
It was a cold black chasm that swallowed all the light in the room.
She had done it.
She was £10,000 richer, and she was entirely irrevocably hollow.
She looked at Craig.
He was still kneeling by the bed.
He was staring at the closed door, his face a mask of shock and awe.
He had a daughter.
He was a father.
He slowly turned his gaze back to her.
His hands were covered in her blood.
She pulled her hand from his grip, rolling away from him, turning her face to the dark, freezing wall.
“Go to her,” she whispered into the pillows, closing her eyes against the ruin of her life.
Your heir is waiting.
Our business is concluded.
She heard him stand up.
He stood by the bed for a long time.
Then the floorboards creaked, the door opened, and he was gone.
The physical recovery was a slow, degrading humiliation.
For 3 days she lay in the massive velvet bed, bleeding, aching, and shivering.
A maid brought her broth and changed her linens, never speaking a word.
The estate had shifted its axis.
She was no longer the vessel of the future.
She was discarded packaging.
From down the long echoing corridor she could hear her.
It was a faint muing cry that easily slipped through the heavy oak doors.
Every time the sound reached her, her breasts achd, leaking a thin, watery milk that stained her night gown.
Her body didn’t know about Mr. Davis or the £10,000.
Her body only knew that its child was crying in another room.
She learned from the silent maid that a wet nurse had been brought up from the village, a woman named Brenda, who smelled of oats and had lost her own infant a month prior.
The thought of another woman holding her daughter, feeding her, soothing her to sleep, felt like hot coals pressed against her skin.
On the fourth morning, an envelope was delivered to her breakfast tray.
It was thick, sealed with red wax bearing the Kensington Manor crest.
Inside were banknotes, £5,000, the second half of her soul.
There was no note, no letter of thanks.
She swung her legs over the edge of the bed.
Her body groaned, but her legs held her weight.
She walked to the wash stand, poured the freezing water from the pitcher, and scrubbed the smell of stale sweat and lavender from her skin.
She dressed in her own clothes.
The gray wool dress hung loosely on her newly emptied frame, though the bodice was tight across her chest.
She pulled on her worn leather boots, staring down at the hole in the left sole.
She was richer than a baron, but she was leaving exactly as she had arrived.
She packed her single carpet bag.
It took less than a minute.
She shoved the thick envelope of banknotes into the bottom under her spare shmese.
Through the window she saw the carriage waiting in the muddy courtyard.
The black lacquer gleamed in the pale spring sun.
The driver was loading a trunk of provisions onto the back.
It was time.
She picked up the carpet bag.
It felt heavy dragging at her weakened shoulder.
She opened the bedroom door and stepped into the corridor.
The house was dead quiet.
The crying had stopped.
Brenda must have fed her.
She walked down the grand staircase, her hand trailing over the polished mahogany banister.
She didn’t look at the portraits.
She didn’t look at the suits of armor.
She kept her eyes fixed on the massive front doors.
Mrs. Miller was waiting in the foyer.
She held a thick woolen traveling cloak.
The carriage will take you directly to the train station in York.
Miss Hughes, she said, her voice entirely devoid of inflection.
Your account in London has been updated, his grace extends his wellw wishes.
Where is he?
She asked.
She hated herself for asking, but the words slipped out.
His grace is in the nursery, Mrs. Miller replied stiffly.
He requested not to be disturbed.
Of course.
Why would he want to see the merchant when the goods had already been delivered?
She took the cloak from her, throwing it over her shoulders.
She reached for the heavy iron handle of the front door.
The brass felt freezing against her palm.
Megan.
The voice cracked like a whip across the vast foyer.
She froze her hand still on the door handle.
Slowly, she turned around.
Craig was standing at the top of the grand staircase.
He looked horrific.
He wore the same trousers and unbuttoned shirt from the night of the birth.
His jaw was covered in dark stubble, his good eye bloodshot and ringed with deep purple shadows.
He held a piece of heavy parchment in his hand.
He didn’t walk down the stairs.
He took them two at a time, moving with a desperate, frantic energy, until he reached the marble floor of the foyer.
Mrs. Miller took one look at his face and silently backed away, disappearing through the servant’s door.
Craig stopped a few feet from her.
He looked at her carpet bag.
He looked at her worn boots.
He looked at the heavy cloak drowning her frame.
“You’re leaving,” he stated.
It wasn’t a question.
“That was the arrangement, your grace,” she said, her voice shaking despite her desperate attempt to keep it flat.
The contract is fulfilled.
The contract, he repeated.
He looked down at the parchment in his hand.
It was the original document signed by her hand and his bearing Mr. Davis’s neat clinical handwriting.
He held it up between them.
This piece of paper says I own a child.
It says I paid you to bleed on my sheets and walk away.
It does.
She tightened her grip on the carpet bag until her knuckles turned white.
“And I have my money.
We are square.”
Craig let out a harsh, broken laugh.
“Square?
You think £10,000 pays for what you did in that room.
You think money covers the sound of you screaming or the way you held my hand while you ripped yourself apart to give me a family?”
He stepped closer.
The smell of sandalwood was gone, replaced by the scent of a man who hadn’t slept in days.
Sweat fear and exhaustion.
I sat in that nursery for 3 days.
Megan, he said, his voice dropping to a raw, ragged whisper.
I held her.
I looked at her perfect face, and all I could think was that she has your chin.
She has your stubborn, furious chin, and she is going to grow up in this massive, silent tomb of a house, and she is going to ask me where her mother is.
Tell her her mother died,” she said, a tear, finally breaking free and tracking through the dust on her cheek.
“Tell her I died in childbirth.
It is what men like you tell children to protect your pride.”
“No.”
Craig grabbed the edge of the parchment with both hands.
With one violent, savage motion, he tore the contract in half.
She gasped, dropping the carpet bag.
It hit the marble floor with a heavy thud.
He tore the halves again and again.
He didn’t stop until the contract was nothing but a pile of jagged white confetti.
He let the pieces fall from his hands.
They fluttered to the marble floor, scattering around her worn leather boots.
The contract is void, Craig said, his chest heaving.
You can’t do that, she stammered, staring at the ripped paper.
Mr. Davis has a copy.
The law.
To hell with the law and to hell with Davis.
Craig shouted the sound echoing off the vated ceiling.
He stepped over the torn paper, closing the distance between them.
He grabbed her shoulders, his large hands warm and heavy through the wool of her cloak.
I don’t want a hired womb, Megan.
He said, staring down into her eyes.
He didn’t turn his scars away.
He forced her to look at the melted ruin of his cheek, the missing ear, the tight, angry skin.
He bared his hideousness to her like a weapon.
I want you.
I want the woman who laughs at my pride.
I want the woman who doesn’t look at her shoes when I walk into a room.
I want my daughter’s mother.
I am ruined.
She sobbed the cynical armor, finally shattering into a million irreparable pieces.
My family is bankrupt.
I am a scandal.
I am a monster, he countered fiercely.
Look at my face, Megan.
Look at me.
Society will whisper about us anyway.
Let them whisper.
Let them choke on it.
He slid his hands from her shoulders to her face, cupping her cheeks, wiping the tears away with his calloused thumbs.
His hands were trembling violently.
“Stay!”
he begged.
It was the first time she had ever heard Craig Kensington beg for anything.
The word was stripped of all aristocratic dignity.
It was purely desperately human.
“Don’t get in that carriage.
Walk back up those stairs with me.
Come hold our daughter.
Our daughter.
The words hit her like a physical shock, warm and blindingly bright.
She looked past his shoulder toward the grand staircase.
At the top of those stairs, down a long hallway, a baby with her chin was sleeping.
She looked back at Craig, at the terrified, hopeful eye watching her, at the scars she had mapped in the dark.
She didn’t give him a flowery declaration.
She didn’t tell him he was beautiful or that love conquered all.
She reached down her fingers, digging into the pocket of her cloak, and pulled out the heavy envelope of banknotes.
She pressed the envelope hard against his chest.
“Take it back,” she said, her voice thick with tears, but steady.
“I am not for sale anymore,” Craig let out a shuddering broken breath.
“He didn’t take the money.
Instead, he wrapped his arms around her, crushing her against his chest, burying his ruined face in her neck.
He smelled of sweat, fear, and home.
She dropped the envelope.
The money hit the marble floor, mixing with the torn pieces of the contract.
She wrapped her arms around his waist, holding him just as tightly, feeling the powerful, erratic thud of his heart against her own.
The carriage outside rolled away empty its wheels, sinking into the spring mud, leaving them behind in the quiet, finally breaking the shadows of Kensington Manor.
THE END
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