My Husband Ignored Me For Five Years — He Returned To Find A Son With His Exact Face
Part 3
Greg could not mend what he had shattered with apologies, but he was going to attempt to build a foundation out of sweat and labor.
The morning light filtering through the tall, arched windows of the dining room was the terrible, muted color of dirty dishwater.
It did absolutely nothing to warm the freezing expanse of the cavernous, stone-walled room that echoed with every tiny movement.
Megan sat at the head of the long oak table, a solitary position she had occupied entirely alone for the past five brutal years.
She was meticulously scraping a paper-thin layer of sharp cheddar cheese onto a piece of rock-hard, stale toast.
Butter was an extravagant luxury currently reserved only for Sunday suppers, and today was merely a bleak, freezing Tuesday.
To her right sat her highly observant four-year-old son, Tyler.
He was carefully cutting a single piece of cheap sausage into perfectly uniform squares, his small brow furrowed in intense, silent concentration.
He wore a clean, albeit severely faded, wool tunic that smelled faintly of harsh lye soap and damp winter air.
The heavy wooden doors at the far end of the room swung open with a resounding, heavy thud that made the crystal chandelier tremble slightly.
Greg walked in, having changed into a crisp, clean day suit of dark charcoal that contrasted sharply with the decaying room.
His cravat was tied with immaculate precision, making him look imposing, powerful, and entirely out of place in the austere, chilly dining hall.
The rich, aristocratic scent of bay rum and expensive shaving soap cut sharply through the stale smell of cold porridge and damp, settling dust.
Megan didn’t even bother to look up from her pathetic meal, continuing the rhythmic scraping of her knife against the hard toast.
Tyler paused his precise cutting, the dull knife hovering completely still over his chipped porcelain plate.
He turned his small head slowly, his icy gray eyes locking onto the tall, intimidating man walking toward them with heavy, deliberate steps.
Greg stopped halfway down the massive table, taking in the vast, depressing expanse of empty, high-backed wooden chairs.
He looked at the meager spread on the tarnished silver platters, realizing there were no poached eggs, smoked kippers, or hothouse fruits.
There was just a lukewarm tureen of gray porridge, a loaf of hard bread, and a pitifully small wedge of sharp cheddar cheese.
He offered a stiff, formal good morning, his deep voice echoing strangely in the quiet, oppressive space of the room.
Megan took a deliberate bite of her toast, the loud crunch sounding incredibly harsh as she chewed methodically and swallowed.
She washed it down with a sip of lukewarm, over-steeped tea before coldly informing him the porridge was likely freezing because they eat promptly at seven.
Greg glanced at the towering grandfather clock ticking in the dark corner, noting it was nearly eight o’clock and he had missed their strict schedule.
He pulled out the chair directly opposite Megan, the heavy wooden legs scraping harshly and aggressively against the unpolished oak floorboards.
He sat down without reaching for the meager food, his eyes fixed entirely and intensely on the small, quiet boy sitting across from him.
He softly spoke his son’s name, the single word feeling incredibly strange, alien, and uncomfortably heavy on his aristocratic tongue.
Tyler didn’t respond, fidget, or offer a childish smile; he simply stared back with an expression that was entirely flat and unreadable.
The boy slowly lowered his knife, picked up a perfectly square piece of sausage with his soot-stained fingers, and put it into his mouth.
He chewed methodically, his piercing, judgment-filled eyes never leaving his father’s tense, unshaven face for a single fraction of a second.
Greg felt a cold, sudden sweat prickle the back of his neck, finding the child’s unnatural stillness incredibly uncanny and deeply unsettling.
Tyler completely lacked the bouncy, nervous energy of a normal child, possessing instead the calculating, silent presence of a predator assessing a threat.
Megan reached gracefully for the cracked teapot, her tone almost conversational as she casually explained that Tyler simply didn’t speak to strangers.
She added without missing a beat that it saved the boy the unnecessary trouble of forming useless, fleeting attachments.
Greg’s jaw tightened in immediate anger as he insisted fiercely that he was not a stranger, but the boy’s own flesh and blood father.
Megan poured a thin, dark stream of bitter tea into her cup, replying coldly that biology was merely a technicality in this freezing house.
She pointed out that Greg was just a random man who had arrived in a carriage the night before, making the postman a far more familiar figure to their son.
Greg placed his large hands flat on the table, desperately wanting to raise his voice, assert his authority, and demand immediate respect.
However, the crushing, suffocating weight of those one hundred and four unread letters resting in the library pressed down heavily on his lungs, stealing his breath.
He realized with sickening clarity that he had absolutely no authority here, existing merely as a useless ghost haunting a house that had long ago learned to survive without him.
He promised in a low, dangerous voice that he fully intended to change that dynamic, speaking the vow to himself as much as to her.
Megan finally looked up at him, her dark, exhausted eyes completely devoid of any lingering hope, malice, or warmth.
She told him he was perfectly welcome to try, but explicitly warned him not to expect her to facilitate the difficult introduction or pave his way.
She coldly reminded him that he was the one who broke this family, and therefore he could figure out exactly how to mend it himself.
She pushed her heavy chair back and stood up abruptly, instructing Tyler to finish his breakfast quickly because Mrs. Brenda needed the ashes cleared from the kitchen hearth.
Genuine, horrified shock fractured Greg’s stoic, diplomatic facade as he demanded to know why the sole heir to a massive dukedom was clearing dirty ashes.
He argued vehemently that the boy should be sitting with an expensive tutor, learning Greek, mathematics, and the history of the realm.
Megan stopped her exit, resting her calloused hand firmly on the back of her chair as she turned slowly back to face him.
She informed him with biting precision that this crumbling estate didn’t run on Greek poetry; it ran on grueling, endless physical labor.
A basic tutor cost forty pounds a year, while urgently repairing the collapsing roof over the desperate tenant cottages cost exactly fifty.
She told him she chose the roof without hesitation, and if he had wanted a brilliant scholar for a son, he should have stayed and paid the damn bills.
She turned swiftly and walked out of the room, her sensible shoes clicking against the floorboards as she left the heavy wooden door wide open behind her.
Greg sat in the echoing, lonely silence of the dining room, looking across the vast table at the incredibly quiet boy.
Tyler finished his last piece of sausage, carefully wiped his mouth with a frayed linen napkin, and placed it perfectly parallel to his plate.
As the boy slid gracefully off his chair and began walking toward the door, Greg reached frantically into the deep pocket of his charcoal coat.
He called out for Tyler to wait, pulling out a small, intricately carved wooden horse that smelled strongly of fresh pine.
He had bought it from a street vendor in Prague months ago, an impulse purchase he hadn’t fully understood until this exact, desperate moment.
He set the wooden horse carefully on the edge of the table, telling the boy with a shaky voice that he had brought it specifically for him.
Tyler stopped his exit, his small footsteps entirely silent on the floorboards as he turned and walked back to peer curiously at the carved wood.
He stood on his tiptoes, reaching out tentatively to touch the horse’s flowing mane with one small, soot-stained index finger.
Greg held his breath tightly, a tiny, desperate, and incredibly fragile spark of hope igniting in the dark cavern of his chest.
Tyler pushed the toy gently, watching it slide unevenly across the polished wood and stop just short of Greg’s completely empty plate.
The boy observed in a quiet, precise voice that the front left leg was significantly shorter than the right, meaning the toy wouldn’t stand straight.
Without offering another word, Tyler turned his back and walked out of the dining room, his small shoes tapping methodically down the corridor toward the kitchens.
Greg sat entirely alone at the massive, empty table, staring down at the fundamentally flawed wooden horse.
He tipped it gently with his index finger, watching it wobble pathetically before falling over onto its side with a dull, hollow clack.
He squeezed his eyes shut in defeat, inhaling the smell of old pine and bitter tea that hung incredibly thick in the freezing air.
For the very first time in his entire, privileged life, the Duke of Ashford had absolutely no idea what to do next.
The sprawling estate stable smelled intensely of stinging ammonia, wet rot, and deeply sour hay that had sat too long in the damp.
Greg stood in the absolute center of the cobbled aisle, staring at the long, depressing row of entirely empty stalls in utter disbelief.
Out of twenty incredibly spacious boxes built for champions, only three were currently occupied by living animals.
Heavy, thick-legged draft horses stood in the pervasive gloom, their coarse coats heavily matted with dried, crusty mud from the fields.
He asked aloud where his prized, expensive hunters were, his warm breath pluming in thick white clouds in the freezing morning air.
The loyal stable master, whose back was permanently bowed from a lifetime of backbreaking labor, didn’t even pause in raking the soiled straw.
He casually replied, without looking up, that her grace had sold them all off three brutal winters back to save the farm.
The expensive oats had been desperately needed for the working plow teams, and Megan had declared they simply couldn’t afford to feed animals that only existed to jump over ornamental hedges.
Greg rubbed his jaw tightly, the dark stubble feeling incredibly rough and abrasive against his smooth, aristocratic palm.
He had spent his precious time in Vienna arguing elegantly over the theoretical placement of cavalry battalions on pristine, colorful maps.
Here, his abandoned wife had systematically sold off his prize-winning, beloved thoroughbreds just to keep the entire farm from collapsing into absolute ruin.
He turned sharply on his heel, his anger warring with his guilt, and walked out into the driving, miserable, freezing drizzle.
He finally found Megan two long, muddy miles away, down by the old, crumbling gristmill where the river was terrifyingly swollen.
The raging water was violently choked with brown foam, dead branches, and churning debris from the overnight storm.
A massive, incredibly heavy timber wagon had sunk completely axle-deep into the gelatinous, unforgiving gray mud of the flooded riverbank.
Four exhausted tenant farmers, completely covered in thick muck, were straining desperately with long wooden levers against the massive rear wheels.
Megan was right down in the freezing, sucking mud with them, showing absolutely no regard for her station or safety.
She wore a heavy, soaking-wet woolen cloak over her faded dress, the hem pinned up haphazardly to expose practical wool stockings and heavy, masculine boots.
Her bare, freezing hands were wrapped tightly around the slick, dangerously muddy wood of a thick lever, her knuckles completely white from the immense strain.
The driving rain plastered loose strands of dark, soaked hair to her pale forehead as she shouted commands over the deafening, terrifying roar of the river.
She called out the lifting cadence loudly, throwing her entire, slight weight against the heavy pole as the strong men grunted in unison.
The massive draft horses screamed in protest and lunged forward violently into their leather collars, causing the trapped wagon to groan and slide an inch.
It immediately sank right back into the deep muck with a sickening, defeated squelch, nearly taking all of them down into the freezing water with it.
Megan stumbled forward dangerously, catching herself hard against the muddy, splintering side of the heavy wooden cart to avoid falling in.
She wiped her face with the back of a filthy, blistered hand, leaving a thick, dark smear of brown earth across her pale cheek.
Greg felt a hot, deeply shameful flush creep rapidly up his neck, burning fiercely against the freezing rain.
The noble Duchess of Ashford was wrestling a massive wagon out of the freezing mud exactly like a common, desperate day laborer.
He strode quickly down the steep embankment, his polished, expensive leather boots slipping dangerously on the wet, treacherous grass.
He barked a sharp order to stop immediately, his voice carrying the practiced, unquestionable authority of a military commander on a battlefield.
The exhausted tenant farmers froze instantly, looking up at the impeccably dressed duke in confusion before hastily dropping their eyes to the mud.
They didn’t bow deeply, nor did they speak a word of greeting; they simply looked to Megan for their actual instructions.
Megan straightened up incredibly slowly, letting go of the heavy wooden lever as her chest heaved with exertion.
She didn’t look the least bit embarrassed to be caught in the mud, but rather profoundly, deeply annoyed by his sudden interruption.
She demanded to know what he was doing there, her breath coming in sharp, visible puffs that plumed in the freezing air.
The incredibly pungent, rotting smell of the river, decaying autumn leaves, and cold silt clung heavily to her saturated cloak.
Greg stepped boldly into the thick mud, the gray sludge immediately cresting over the toes of his expensive boots and ruining the leather.
He stated firmly that he was stopping his wife from breaking her back in a freezing ditch, looking at the exhausted men with authority.
He ordered them to unload the heavy grain sacks immediately because the cart was far too heavy to move in this condition.
He instructed them to carry the heavy sacks across the rickety bridge by hand and then pull the entirely empty wagon out of the muck.
The tired men shifted very uncomfortably in the mud, and Mr. Davis, a farmer with a thick gray beard, spoke softly to the ground.
He explained respectfully that it was vital seed grain, and dragging the unprotected sacks through the driving rain would ruin the entire, precious lot.
Greg’s mouth formed a hard, unyielding line, as he was entirely unaccustomed to having his direct orders questioned, regardless of physics or harsh weather.
He opened his mouth to loudly override the farmer, completely prepared to enforce his will upon the muddy scene.
Megan cut in sharply before he could speak, her voice completely flat, tired, and dripping with thinly veiled contempt.
She didn’t even look at Greg, keeping her dark eyes fixed firmly on the stuck wheel as she agreed with Mr. Davis’s assessment.
She stated loudly that they desperately needed more leverage and ordered the heavy timber block brought directly under the left axle.
Greg stepped forward aggressively and grabbed her arm, demanding she go back to the warm house because she was soaked completely to the bone.
He arrogantly and foolishly declared that he would manage the difficult situation himself, attempting to assert his dominance.
Megan looked down at his clean, incredibly pale hand wrapped tightly around her mud-caked, soaking sleeve.
She didn’t yank her arm away in a dramatic struggle, but simply stared at his hand until he felt the total, humiliating absurdity of his grip and let go.
She asked him softly what exactly he intended to manage, the cold, slicing contempt in her voice piercing easily through the roar of the rushing water.
She challenged him, asking if he knew the tension threshold of an oak axle, or the crucial difference between winter wheat and rye seed.
She pointed out brutally that these working men did not know him at all, and they answered exclusively and loyally to her.
She told him to stand aside, using his Christian name for the very first time since his return, and it felt exactly like a vicious physical slap across the face.
Greg stood entirely frozen in the mud, watching helplessly as his wife turned her back on him and grabbed the muddy lever once more.
He watched the muscles in her slender back strain immensely as she fought the very earth to save their fragile livelihood.
For the first time in five years, he deeply and painfully realized that Ashford didn’t need a duke; it already had a fiercely capable, hardened master.
He didn’t retreat to the safety and comfort of the dry bank, swallowing the thick, burning lump of his own incredible uselessness.
He walked silently to the rear of the stuck wagon, stripped off his heavy charcoal coat, and threw it carelessly onto a relatively dry patch of tall grass.
His pristine linen shirt immediately soaked completely through in the freezing, driving rain, clinging tightly to his skin like a second layer of freezing ice.
He didn’t give a single order or shout a command, simply wedging his broad shoulder beneath the slick, muddy timber of the cart’s frame right next to Mr. Davis.
The overpowering, suffocating smell of wet wool, unwashed bodies, and raw, churned earth filled his lungs completely.
Megan saw him out of the corner of her eye, pausing for a fraction of a second as her jaw tightened imperceptibly.
She didn’t tell him to leave, choosing instead to shout the lifting cadence once again with renewed, desperate vigor.
Greg dug his expensive boots deeply into the sludge, pushing until his vision blurred at the edges and the rough wood bit agonizingly into his shoulder bone.
He matched the desperate, silent, grueling rhythm of the men around him, throwing his massive, muscular weight into the collective effort.
They pushed with everything they had until the heavy wagon finally tore free from the sucking mud with a violent, triumphant crack.
The old, sprawling conservatory at the back of the massive house was a pathetic, haunting graveyard of forgotten ambition and lost wealth.
Half the delicate glass panes in the towering domed roof were completely shattered, letting in the biting, relentless cold draft and rain.
Dead, brown vines clung desperately to the rusted iron trellises, looking as brittle and fragile as ancient, forgotten bones.
The stagnant air smelled strongly of damp earth, deep rot, and incredibly thick rust.
Greg found Tyler sitting entirely alone on the cracked stone floor, a small wooden bucket beside him and a heavy iron hammer resting dangerously on his lap.
The boy was picking up bent, heavily rusted nails from a scatter on the floor, placing them carefully on a flat paving stone.
He methodically struck them with the heavy hammer to straighten them out, the incredibly loud clang echoing sharply in the cavernous, empty room.
Greg stood silently in the doorway, his shoulder aching violently from his intense efforts with the stuck wagon at the river.
His ruined shirt was dried tight to his skin, still carrying the foul, unmistakable stench of river mud and sweat.
He watched the boy work with precise, calculated strikes, coaxing the metal back into a perfectly usable shape without mashing or destroying it.
Tyler tossed the freshly straightened nails into the bucket and reached for another without pausing for even a second.
Greg walked slowly into the room, his heavy boots crunching loudly and disruptively on the scattered fragments of broken glass.
Tyler didn’t even bother to look up, continuing to strike the iron with a steady, unwavering, and almost hypnotic rhythm.
Greg lowered himself slowly onto the freezing cold stone floor, sitting cross-legged just a few feet away from the incredibly serious child.
He felt massive, incredibly clumsy, and entirely out of place in the delicate, ruined space of his childhood memories.
He asked softly if Tyler was saving nails, his voice quiet and completely stripped of its usual booming, aristocratic resonance.
Tyler explained practically that the village blacksmith charged a farthing for a dozen new ones, so these simply needed to be hit right to save money.
Greg watched the boy’s small, soot-stained fingers work, mentioning with a hint of nostalgia that he used to play in this very room when he was a boy.
Tyler pragmatically pointed out that there was absolutely nothing to play with, as the entire room was just dirt now.
Greg vividly remembered the lush lemon trees his mother had brought over from Italy, mentioning how incredibly sweet they smelled in the dead of winter.
Tyler tossed another straightened nail into the bucket, stating brutally that lemon trees inevitably die in the frost, so it was incredibly stupid to bring them here.
Greg flinched physically at the child’s absolute lack of sentimentality, recognizing Megan’s ruthless survival instinct filtered directly through a tiny frame.
He murmured his reluctant agreement, reaching out slowly to pick up a bent nail that was freezing cold and rough with thick rust.
He asked softly if he could try, holding the twisted piece of iron up for the boy’s critical inspection.
Those terrifying, icy gray eyes scanned Greg’s face without a single trace of a smile or childish wonder.
Tyler didn’t offer the hammer freely, but simply pushed the heavy iron tool across the dusty stone floor toward his massive father.
Greg took it, feeling the incredibly smooth handle that had been worn down completely from constant, daily use.
He placed the bent nail on the flat stone, bringing the hammer down with far too much force for the delicate task.
The nail bent completely backward with a sharp, sickening crack, forming a completely useless, twisted shape.
The hammer slipped off the metal, striking the stone hard and sending a deeply painful vibration shooting rapidly up Greg’s forearm.
Tyler let out a heavy, disappointed exhale, resembling a tired, overworked foreman rather than a four-year-old boy playing a game.
He reached over, took the tragically twisted nail, and dropped it into a separate, much smaller pile of totally useless scraps.
He softly instructed his father that he must strike the curve, because forcing it down straight simply breaks the brittle iron.
Greg stared at the scrap pile, nodding slowly in understanding before reaching for another bent nail from the main pile.
He adjusted his grip carefully on the hammer, softening his hold significantly and focusing entirely on the task.
He tapped the gentle curve of the metal with steady, light strikes, watching it slowly yield and straighten out perfectly against the stone.
He asked hopefully if that was correct, his chest feeling tight with a bizarre, suffocating sense of terrifying hope.
Tyler gave a single, microscopic nod of approval, accepting the work without a single word of praise.
Neither of them noticed Megan standing completely silently in the doorway, her muddy cloak dripping dark water onto the floorboards.
Her hands were incredibly raw and blistered from the wooden lever, but she stood completely still, watching the scene unfold.
She watched the massive Duke of Ashford sitting in the dirt, carefully tapping a rusted nail under the intensely watchful eye of a four-year-old boy.
A sudden, incredibly sharp ache bloomed dangerously beneath her ribs, terrified by the vicious, entirely unwanted pain of deep longing.
A ghost of a thought whispered treacherously in the back of her mind, suggesting this was exactly what a father, a son, and a family could have been.
She crushed the dangerous thought instantly, knowing deep down that hope had nearly killed her five long years ago.
Hope was the deadly poison that made her wait by the freezing window, writing one hundred and four desperate letters into an empty, silent void.
She had barely survived by excising hope entirely, cutting it out of her soul like a rapidly spreading rot.
She absolutely could not afford to let Greg crack the solid, protective foundation she had built out of sheer, unyielding ice.
Megan stepped fully into the doorway, her heavy boots scraping loudly and intentionally against the wood to announce her presence.
Greg’s head snapped up immediately, and Tyler instantly stopped his sorting, freezing in place like a startled animal.
She told Tyler to leave the iron, her voice cold and perfectly even as she informed him there were dirty potatoes to scrub in the kitchen.
Greg frowned deeply, the heavy hammer still in his hand, arguing that the boy was helping him and teaching him how to fix things.
Megan corrected him smoothly, stating the boy was doing necessary chores, exactly as Greg should be doing if he seriously intended to stay.
She informed him the complicated ledgers for the North tenant farms were exactly five years out of date, and since he liked fixing broken things, he could start there.
She didn’t wait for any sort of reply or argument, turning to her son and commanding him to come immediately.
Tyler stood up without a single second of hesitation, without looking back or saying goodbye, and walked straight over to his mother.
Megan took his hand, an incredibly rare gesture of physical contact, and led him quickly away down the dark hall.
Greg sat entirely alone in the dirt, looking down at the perfectly straightened nail resting on the stone block.
He picked it up, noting it was rough, imperfect, and heavily scarred with rust, but it was finally straight and incredibly strong.
He closed his massive fist around it, the metal biting sharply into his palm as he listened to the fading sound of their footsteps.
The library was absolutely freezing, as Greg had stubbornly let the fire die hours ago.
He was entirely unwilling to ring for a servant to bring up coal that he now knew the crumbling estate could barely afford.
The only flickering light came from a single, sputtering tallow candle resting on the massive, ink-stained mahogany desk.
It smelled strongly of rendered animal fat and burning string, casting long, dancing shadows across the room.
Spread out before him were the estate ledgers, five incredibly heavy, leather-bound books that served as a flawless surgical autopsy of his absolute abandonment.
He turned a crisp, deeply yellowed page, tracing a trembling finger down the long column of desperate expenses from four years ago.
The ink was faded but the writing was impeccably clear, written in Megan’s sharp, unhesitating hand.
He read the horrifying entry for an apothecary fee for a child’s severe lung fever, followed immediately by the desperate sale of a rosewood pianoforte.
He stared at the numbers until they completely blurred, realizing she had sold her own beloved possessions just to buy coal to keep his son alive.
He turned another brittle, fragile page, his thumb brushing slowly over the terrifying record of massive crown taxes due.
The very next entry detailed the heartbreaking sale of the Ashford emerald parure for exactly two hundred pounds.
His stomach bottomed out completely, knowing the priceless emeralds were a sacred family heirloom and his wedding gift to her.
She hadn’t sold it for frivolous dresses or extravagant trips to London, but to pay the massive taxes on a freezing house he had left her to rot in.
He closed the ledger, the heavy cover falling shut with a muffled, heavy thud that echoed accusingly in the cavernous, empty room.
Every drafty corridor and completely stripped wall was screaming at him, making the stale air in the library feel completely toxic to breathe.
Greg stood up abruptly, taking the flickering candle, and walked out into the pitch-black, silent hallway.
He walked slowly up the grand staircase and passed his own perfectly prepared, warm master suite in the east wing without stopping.
He kept walking until he reached the incredibly far end of the corridor, where the meager servants’ quarters intersected with the main house.
A thin, incredibly weak sliver of light bled from beneath a heavy wooden door, and he could hear the agonizingly quiet sound of a needle pulling through thick fabric.
He pushed the door open, the dry, un-oiled hinges creaking violently in the completely silent wing.
Megan was sitting by the freezing window in a room absolutely no larger than a dressing closet.
It was entirely devoid of any decoration, containing only a narrow iron bed, a cracked washstand, and a single, uncomfortable wooden chair.
She was hunched over a pile of dark wool, wearing her heavy outdoor cloak indoors as she meticulously patched the knee of Tyler’s trousers.
Her breath formed faint, ghostly white plumes in the dim, freezing light, but she merely paused her stitching when the door opened.
The hollows beneath her beautiful eyes were bruised with incredibly deep, exhausted purple.
She told him the estate ledgers were not in this room, her voice a dry, incredibly tired rasp.
Greg stepped inside, the low, sloping ceiling pressing down heavily and claustrophobically on his broad shoulders as he asked why she was sleeping there instead of the master suite.
She explained pragmatically that the massive master suite required three roaring hearths just to keep the deep damp out of the walls, while this tiny room warmed much faster with simple body heat.
When he pointed out with horror that it was a servant’s room, she bit off the end of her heavy thread and declared she was merely an overworked servant with a fancy title.
Greg stepped closer, the incredibly depressing smell of cold wool, medicinal camphor, and exhausted sweat hanging heavily in the air.
He told her he had read the ledgers, and his voice cracked violently as he mentioned the heartbreaking sale of the emeralds.
Megan looked up directly at him, her dark eyes locking onto his with terrifying, completely hollow pragmatism.
She explained the ruthless magistrate had threatened to seize the tenant lands entirely, and she simply couldn’t feed starving people with pretty stones.
He whispered desperately that she should have sent them to his wealthy bankers in London, wishing he could undo the past.
She cut him off sharply, her voice slicing completely through the freezing air as she revealed she had sent three desperate letters to his bankers.
They had replied coldly that his grace had frozen the estate accounts pending his return, and absolutely no funds could be released without his physical signature.
She accused him of intentionally locking the vault and then cruelly throwing away the only key.
The horrifying memory hit Greg exactly like a brutal physical blow, recalling the petty fit of arrogant annoyance five years ago when he had frozen the funds to punish her for constantly asking for repairs.
He had gone to Vienna, gotten swept up in diplomacy, and simply forgotten the catastrophic order, leaving his entirely innocent family to starve to death.
He sank to his knees, the rough, unpolished wood of the floor biting sharply into his kneecaps as he whispered her name in shattered, absolute disbelief.
Megan recoiled instantly, pulling her knees back away from his proximity in a visceral, incredibly painful movement of deep disgust.
She warned him fiercely not to kneel or dare apologize, because she simply did not have the time or energy to coddle his sudden, entirely useless guilt.
He whispered that he had left her to starve, his voice breaking entirely as the full weight of his monstrous failure crashed down upon him.
Megan lifted her chin, a sudden, incredibly fierce pride burning brightly in her exhausted eyes as she declared loudly that they absolutely didn’t starve.
She fiercely stated she fought and kept the house, she kept the farms running, and she kept their son alive.
She commanded him firmly not to come back here and try to turn her incredible, agonizing survival into his personal, dramatic tragedy.
The terrible fever hit her the very next afternoon, creeping in like a silent, deadly thief rather than announcing itself with dramatic swooning.
Megan was in the freezing kitchen courtyard, stubbornly sorting a delivery of shriveled winter carrots in the freezing, relentless rain.
Greg was watching her closely from the library window when he noticed the terrifying, uncontrollable way her hands were shaking.
She dropped a carrot and bent to pick it up, but caught the rough edge of the stone trough as her knuckles turned stark white from the effort.
She stayed completely bent over for ten incredibly long seconds, entirely unable to straighten up or catch her breath.
Greg was out the door before he even made a conscious decision to move, his heavy boots slipping dangerously on the slick, wet cobblestones.
He reached her just as her knees completely gave out, catching her firmly by the shoulders and pulling her back securely against his chest.
She felt terrifyingly light, her sharp, exhausted bones pressing painfully against his large hands while completely unnatural, terrifying heat radiated through her damp cloak.
Her pale face was flushed a violent, sickly red, her dry lips were tinged a terrifying blue, and her glassy eyes stared at his cravat in completely unfocused confusion.
She mumbled incoherently about burying the carrots deeply in the sand cellar to stop the spreading rot, her voice incredibly thick and slurred from the surging fever.
Greg cursed the damn carrots loudly, sweeping one massive arm under her knees and lifting her clean off the freezing, wet ground.
She fought him weakly, her small fists batting pathetically against his solid chest as she gasped that she simply had to finish the estate ledgers.
He held her much tighter, marching determinedly toward the heavy kitchen doors and promising fiercely that he would do the damn ledgers himself.
Her head rolled back limply against his broad shoulder as her eyes fluttered shut, her brutal, entirely unyielding machine finally, totally breaking down.
He kicked the kitchen door open violently, startling Mrs. Brenda so badly she dropped a wooden spoon clattering onto the stone floor.
He roared for boiling hot water and camphor to be brought immediately to the master suite.
When the terrified housekeeper stammered that the mistress always slept in the east wing, Greg bellowed that she slept in the master suite now and forever.
He carried her effortlessly up the grand stairs, bypassing the freezing, miserable servant’s room entirely and pushing open the double doors of his own heavily heated chambers.
He laid her gently on the massive four-poster bed as she shivered violently, her teeth chattering so incredibly hard the clicking echoed loudly across the large room.
He didn’t bother to call for a maid, rapidly stripping off his ruined coat and rolling up the sleeves of his linen shirt.
He unclasped her sodden cloak, his large, clumsy fingers pulling the incredibly heavy, wet wool away from her dangerously feverish body.
The door opened silently behind him, revealing Tyler standing in the doorway holding his heavy wooden bucket of meticulously straightened nails.
The terrifyingly blank, stoic expression on the boy’s face finally cracked wide open, his small hands tightening on the bucket handle until his knuckles were pure white.
His lower lip gave a microscopic, completely devastating tremble, betraying the sheer, absolute terror that his only parent might die.
Greg felt his heart fracture completely into a million pieces, walking over and crouching down to the terrified boy’s eye level.
He kept his voice incredibly steady and calmly reassuring as he explained she had a bad fever from pushing herself far too hard in the freezing river.
Tyler stared at him with thick, unshed tears pooling in his eyes, whispering that the village apothecary said people die from severe fevers.
Greg didn’t offer a gentle, useless platitude, but instead delivered a hard, completely unyielding, and ironclad vow.
He placed a heavy, reassuring hand on Tyler’s small, trembling shoulder, swearing to the boy that he absolutely would not let her die, and assuring him he wasn’t going anywhere ever again.
Tyler swallowed hard, looking intently at the large, warm hand on his shoulder as a tiny, incredibly fragile sliver of trust finally took root.
For the next ten agonizing, exhausting hours, the Duke of Ashford absolutely did not sit down for a single moment.
He bathed Megan’s burning, flushed forehead with cool water and rubbed foul-smelling, medicinal camphor deeply into her chest as she choked on terrifying, dry coughs.
When she thrashed wildly in violent delirium, he held her down incredibly gently to keep her from hurting herself or falling from the bed.
Through it all, Tyler sat silently on a heavy wingback chair in the corner of the room, watching this strange, massive man fight a desperate, grueling war for his mother’s life.
Near midnight, the terrifying fever finally broke, and her frantic breathing shifted into incredibly deep, even, and peaceful draws as a sheen of cool sweat broke out across her forehead.
Greg finally sat down in a chair pulled close to the bed, his back screaming in absolute agony and his hands completely stained with grease, soot, and medicine.
He leaned forward, resting his incredibly exhausted head in his large hands, feeling profoundly more tired than he had ever been after a brutal, multi-day cavalry march.
A small, incredibly quiet sound made him open his eyes as Tyler slid off his large chair and walked entirely silently across the thick, expensive rug.
The boy stopped right next to Greg and simply reached out, placing his small, completely cold hand firmly on top of his exhausted father’s arm.
Greg stared in awe at the tiny hand resting against his incredibly dirty sleeve, barely daring to breathe as he felt the terrifying, beautiful, and incredibly fragile weight of his son’s touch.
The pungent smell of burnt tallow and incredibly sharp camphor was the very first thing Megan registered when she finally opened her heavy eyes.
She stared in confusion at the high, vaulted ceiling beautifully framed in carved mahogany, slowly realizing she was resting comfortably in the massive master suite.
She pushed herself up carefully onto her elbows, a dull, throbbing ache radiating at the base of her skull from the lingering fever.
Greg was slouched deeply in the heavy wingback chair, his once-pristine shirt entirely wrinkled and heavily stained with grease, soot, and sweat.
A thick, incredibly dark shadow of a beard covered his strong jaw, leaving behind a completely haggard, totally exhausted man.
He snapped awake instantly the moment the mattress groaned, crossing the entire distance to the bed with frantic, completely unguarded intensity.
He didn’t try to touch her or overwhelm her, simply pouring a glass of cool water from the washstand with hands that visibly shook from exhaustion.
He sat incredibly carefully on the edge of the mattress, slipping one strong arm gently behind her shoulders to perfectly support her as she drank greedily.
He smelled strongly of wood smoke, stale sweat, and the sheer, undeniable exhaustion of a man who had fought a war all night long.
He quietly told her the fever finally broke near midnight and she had slept peacefully straight through the entire morning.
Megan looked past him to the foot of the massive bed, where Tyler was curled tightly into a ball, fast asleep right on top of Greg’s discarded riding coat.
A strange, unfamiliar tightness completely seized her chest, absolutely terrified by the stark realization that her perfectly controlled, totally isolated world had been fundamentally breached.
She noted softly that he had actually stayed, stating it as a simple, undeniable fact rather than asking a vulnerable question.
Greg looked directly at her with entirely raw, completely unguarded eyes, asking her honestly where else he would possibly be.
She reflexively suggested Vienna or Paris, though she found she was entirely too tired to summon her usual, protective venom.
He didn’t flinch away or offer a single pathetic excuse about his incredibly important diplomatic duties to the crown.
He simply stated incredibly quietly that he had officially resigned his post and sent a fast courier to London the previous morning.
He leaned forward, openly confessing he had been an entirely arrogant, incredibly blind fool for solving the theoretical problems of kings while his own wife dragged heavy carts out of the freezing mud.
Megan stared silently at the ceiling, warning him softly that he couldn’t simply erase five long, brutal years of silence with one single night of camphor and water.
He agreed instantly without hesitation, telling her he absolutely didn’t expect forgiveness, but he fully expected to pay his massive, terrible debt in full.
He brilliantly recited the complex estate problems perfectly from memory, promising to hire a skilled crew for the roof and officially sign the bank releases immediately.
He told her she didn’t have to talk to him, look at him, or forgive him, but she was going to let him do the heavy lifting from now on.
Megan watched him closely, desperately wanting to push him away back to her incredibly hard, safe, and lonely life, but the ache in her bones was profound.
She looked at Tyler sleeping soundly on his father’s coat, finally realizing she simply couldn’t carry the immense weight of the world entirely alone anymore.
She whispered weakly that the farrier desperately needed to be paid by Friday, or he wouldn’t shoe the plow horses for the spring planting.
A muscle leapt visibly in Greg’s jaw as he accepted the mundane chore, stripping himself completely of all his aristocratic pride as he promised to handle it.
Megan didn’t smile brightly or reach out for his hand, but she slowly closed her eyes, the endless, suffocating tension finally bleeding completely out of her shoulders.
For the very first time in five completely brutal, lonely years, she allowed herself to truly, deeply rest.
THE END
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