My Husband Locked Himself In A Tomb For Seven Years — Until I Broke His Priceless Urn
Part 2
We walked down a corridor that smelled heavily of old candle wax and the damp, earthy scent of ancient masonry.
My broken boot heel scraped uselessly against the floorboards.
He pushed open a heavy oak door at the end of the hall.
The library smelled deeply of pipe tobacco, aged leather, and decaying books.
The heavy velvet curtains were drawn tight, sealing out the fading daylight.
He guided me to a cracked leather wingback chair near the cold fireplace and pushed me gently down by the shoulder.
I sank into it with a heavy sigh, the chair groaning under the stiff layers of my dress.
Dan walked over to a dark mahogany side table.
He pulled out a small brass-cornered medical box and set it on a low table beside my chair.
He pulled over a wooden stool and sat facing me.
Without asking, he took my left hand again.
He peeled the lint-covered handkerchief away from my palm.
I hissed sharply through my teeth as the cold air hit the wound.
He pressed an iodine-soaked linen firmly against the cut.
I flinched violently, a sharp gasp escaping my throat.
My right hand gripped the arm of the leather chair so hard my knuckles turned stark white.
I clamped my eyes shut.
He noted unhelpfully that it stung.
I gritted my teeth, my eyes watering, and praised his masterful observation skills.
He began to wrap a clean bandage around my palm.
I watched his hands move, precise and careful.
I told him he had a terrible habit of putting very large, very hard things exactly where people needed to step.
The pedestal had been in that exact location for forty years, he stated flatly.
I countered stubbornly that it was lurking.
I informed him the urn looked like a diseased cabbage, and I had done him a favor.
His hands froze mid-motion.
The silence in the library stretched, absolute and heavy.
The only sound was the hollow ticking of the grandfather clock.
My bravado suddenly cracked.
I remembered who I was speaking to.
I whispered a frantic apology, my shoulders shrinking into the cheap taffeta.
I told him I was just very tired.
Dan stared at the white bandage in his hands.
A muscle in his jaw twitched.
The tight, frozen mask of his face fractured just a millimeter.
The corner of his mouth pulled upwards in a sharp, involuntary jerk.
He admitted softly that it really was a hideous urn.
I blinked, completely thrown off balance by the dry amusement in his rough voice.
I had cracked the ice around his heart, but as the winter deepened, I wondered if it was enough to save either of us from the ghosts in this house?
Part 3
The ice around Dan’s heart had cracked in the library that afternoon, but one shared moment over a ruined urn was not nearly enough to banish the ghosts of Rothbury Hall.
The winter deepened, and the estate remained a sprawling mausoleum, fiercely guarding its decay.
Saving both of them would require far more than a bandaged hand and a rusty, forgotten laugh.
It would require a slow, grinding collision of two broken people forced to share the dark.
The bathwater was entirely lukewarm.
It smelled strongly of lye soap and ancient copper piping.
The scent hung thick in the cavernous, drafty bathing chamber.
Megan submerged herself until the tepid water kissed her collarbone.
She stared at the peeling plaster cherubs on the ceiling.
Her left hand, clumsily wrapped in Dan’s stark white linen, hung over the edge of the copper tub to stay dry.
She was shivering.
Her muscles, tight as piano wires since the carriage ride, refused to uncoil.
She had survived the wedding.
She had survived her father’s frantic, sweaty farewell.
She had shattered a priceless artifact and bled on a duke’s floor.
Now, she simply had to survive the rest of her life in a house that felt like a beautifully furnished tomb.
When she finally emerged, her skin puckered from the chill, she found a different dress laid out on the massive four-poster bed.
Her trunk had been unpacked.
Mrs. Miller, moving with the silent efficiency of a wraith, had clearly assessed her meager wardrobe and selected the least offensive option.
It was a heavy, dark, slate blue wool gown.
It was severe, high-collared, and smelled faintly of lavender and old mothballs.
It was, however, warm.
Megan dragged it over her head, wrestling with the tiny hooks at the bodice with her one good hand.
Dinner was served at eight o’clock.
The dining room of Rothbury Hall was an exercise in architectural intimidation.
The ceiling was lost in shadows.
A massive chandelier hung dead and unlit above a mahogany table long enough to seat thirty people.
At the far end of the table sat Dan.
He was bathed in the meager light of two solitary beeswax candles.
He had not changed his clothes, though he had discarded his heavy tailcoat.
He looked smaller here, swallowed by the sheer volume of the empty room.
His shoulders were rigid beneath his black waistcoat.
A footman pulled out a chair at the opposite end of the table.
Megan stared at it.
The distance between her chair and Dan’s was roughly twenty feet of polished wood.
She sat down.
The chair was incredibly heavy.
The carved wood dug into her spine.
Dinner was a silent, meticulously choreographed haunting.
Footmen emerged from the gloom, placing plates down with practiced, terrifying silence.
The first course was a watery, gray soup that tasted faintly of parsnips and despair.
Megan picked up her heavy silver spoon.
It felt cold and dense in her grip.
She looked down the length of the table.
Dan was staring at his bowl.
He picked up his spoon, dipped it into the gray liquid, and brought it to his mouth.
He chewed once, though there was nothing to chew, and swallowed.
His face betrayed absolutely no emotion.
He ate like a machine tasked with a grim, necessary chore.
Megan tasted her soup.
It was completely devoid of salt.
She set her spoon down.
The sound, a sharp clink of silver against porcelain, cracked through the room like a musket shot.
Dan paused, his spoon halfway to his mouth.
He did not look up, but his posture stiffened.
Megan looked around the immediate vicinity of her place setting.
There were five forks, three knives, and two crystal goblets.
There was no salt cellar.
She looked down the twenty feet of mahogany.
A small cut-glass bowl of salt sat exactly at the midway point of the table.
She calculated the distance.
She calculated the exhaustion in her bones.
She looked at the bruised purple bags beneath her new husband’s eyes.
She spoke up, asking to be excused.
Her voice rasped in the cavernous space.
Dan slowly lowered his spoon.
He raised his eyes, squinting slightly against the candlelight, to see her at the far end of the room.
He asked if the soup was unsatisfactory.
Megan replied that it was hot water masquerading as a vegetable, and she required the salt.
Her tone was utterly flat.
The two footmen standing by the sideboard rigidly sucked in their breath.
Dan stared at her.
The shadows danced across the hollows of his cheeks.
For a long agonizing minute, he did nothing.
Then slowly, he pushed his chair back.
The wooden legs scraped harshly against the floorboards.
He stood up, walked ten feet down the length of the table, picked up the small crystal salt cellar, and walked the remaining ten feet to her chair.
He set it down next to her water goblet with a sharp clack.
She thanked him, not looking at his face, but at the knuckles of his hand.
They were white, the skin pulled tight over the bone.
Dan didn’t return to his seat.
He stood beside her chair, looking down at her plate.
He explained that his cook, Mrs. Smith, believed that spices excited the blood.
He stated she had been boiling his meals for seven years.
Megan took a pinch of salt with her good hand and sprinkled it heavily over the gray soup.
She took another pinch and did it again.
She noted that his blood must be entirely comatose by now.
Dan let out a short sharp exhalation through his nose.
It wasn’t a laugh.
It was merely a forceful expulsion of air.
He agreed that it was.
He turned and walked the twenty feet back to his chair.
He sat down, picked up his spoon, and resumed eating his unseasoned water.
Megan ate.
The salt helped marginally.
As she swallowed the hot liquid, she realized something unsettling.
The silence in the room had changed.
It was no longer the heavy suffocating silence of an empty tomb.
It was the tense, vibrating silence of two strangers sitting in the dark, profoundly aware of each other’s breathing.
Morning at Rothbury Hall did not break.
It merely seeped in through the cracks in the heavy velvet curtains.
Dan was in the library by six o’clock.
This was his routine.
He would sit at the massive mahogany desk, pull out the estate ledgers, and stare at numbers until the sheer monotony of agricultural yields numbed his brain.
It was a controlled, heavily structured misery.
At precisely nine o’clock, the heavy oak door creaked open.
Dan didn’t look up from the column of numbers detailing the winter wheat harvest.
He assumed it was Brian bringing the post.
But the footfalls that entered the room were uneven.
A heavy step followed by a lighter scraping sound.
Step, scrape.
Step, scrape.
He finally raised his eyes.
Megan stood in the center of the library.
She was wearing the same severe slate blue wool dress from the night before.
Her dark hair was pulled back into a knot so tight it seemed to be pulling the skin of her forehead taut.
She was holding a battered leather boot in her right hand.
Her left hand was still wrapped in his white linen bandage.
She was wearing only thick gray woolen stockings on her feet.
She announced that the east wing was colder than a butcher’s icebox.
She stated it as a geopolitical fact.
She listed the offenses of the house: the drawing room fire was unlit, the morning room smelled of damp dog, and Mrs. Miller had informed her that the Duke preferred the house kept dormant.
Dan slowly placed his brass pen down on the ledger.
He told her he did not like the smell of wood smoke in the morning.
Megan countered that she did not like the threat of frostbite indoors.
She limped over to the cold, ash-filled fireplace.
She dropped the broken boot onto the hearth with a dull thud.
She declared her heel completely unmoored.
Until the cobbler in the village could repair it, she was largely immobile.
She turned to face him, crossing her arms over the thick wool of her bodice.
She declared she was occupying this room.
It had books, and it appeared to be the only room in this sprawling mausoleum where human life was actively sustained.
Dan stared at her.
The sheer audacity of her invasion rubbed against the rigid, calcified walls of his routine like coarse sandpaper.
He wanted to order her out.
He wanted to demand his isolation back.
He opened his mouth to do exactly that.
Megan pointed an uninjured finger toward the heavily draped alcove.
She pointed out a draft coming from that window.
It was blowing directly onto her neck.
Dan closed his mouth.
He looked at the window.
He looked back at her.
She wasn’t demanding his attention, nor was she offering sympathy.
She was simply existing, loudly and inconveniently, in his space.
He stated, his voice dropping into its customary low, gravelly rasp, that the library was for reading, not complaining.
Megan replied that she would read.
She limped to the nearest bookshelf.
The shelves soared fourteen feet high, packed tight with thousands of leather-bound volumes, all coated in a fine, undisturbed layer of gray dust.
She reached up with her right hand and pulled a book at random.
A small cloud of dust rained down on her sleeve.
She sneezed.
It was a loud, violent sound that startled Dan so badly his knee cracked against the underside of the desk.
Megan rubbed her nose with the back of her wrist, glaring at the book.
She read the spine, her voice dripping with profound disappointment.
She groaned that it was Seneca, stoic philosophy.
She muttered how shockingly appropriate it was for this house.
She turned and hobbled toward the cracked leather wingback chair, the same one she had bled on yesterday.
She sank into it, pulled her stockinged feet up beneath her skirts to hoard her body heat, and opened the book.
Dan watched her.
He watched the way her brow furrowed as she scanned the dense Latin text.
He watched the way her injured left hand rested awkwardly on her lap.
He looked down at his ledger.
The numbers blurred.
The absolute silence of his morning was ruined.
He could hear the rustle of her wool dress every time she shifted.
He could hear the soft, rhythmic sound of her breathing.
He could smell the faint, clean scent of the lye soap she had bathed in, cutting through the stale tobacco of the room.
Ten minutes passed.
Megan suddenly stated, not looking up from the page, that Seneca was incredibly tedious.
Dan replied to his ledger that the philosopher was highly regarded.
Megan argued that he told people to accept suffering with grace.
She noted it sounded like a man who never had to wear a corset made of cheap whalebone.
She aggressively flipped a page.
She added it also sounded like a man who never had to eat Mrs. Smith’s boiled beef.
Dan felt that strange, tight pulling sensation in his chest again.
The rusty, involuntary twitch at the corner of his mouth returned.
He stood up.
The movement was sudden enough to make Megan flinch slightly, her eyes darting toward him.
He ignored her reaction, walking past her chair toward the massive stone fireplace.
He knelt on the hearth.
His joints popped in a loud, successive chorus.
He reached into the brass scuttle, pulled out three dry logs of split oak, and arranged them over the old ash.
He struck a long sulfur match against the stone.
It flared to life with a sharp, acrid hiss.
He touched the flame to the dry kindling beneath the logs.
It caught immediately, hungry and bright.
Dan stood up and brushed the ash from his trousers.
The smell of burning wood and sulfur filled the room, pushing back the scent of stale tobacco and dust.
The heat began to radiate outward, a physical weight in the frigid air.
He didn’t look at Megan as he walked back to his desk.
He sat down and picked up his brass pen.
Megan noted softly that she thought he despised the smell of wood smoke in the morning.
Her voice lacked its defensive edge.
Dan dipped his pen into the inkwell.
He pointed out that Seneca also wrote that sometimes even to live is an act of courage.
He pressed the nib to the paper, the scratchy sound loud in the quiet room.
He admitted he found he could not argue with a woman holding a broken boot.
Megan didn’t reply.
But when Dan finally allowed his eyes to flick upward, just for a fraction of a second, he saw her leaning closer to the hearth.
She was soaking in the heat.
The rigid line of her shoulders was finally beginning to drop.
The invasion of Rothbury Hall happened not with a cavalry charge, but with the agonizing high-pitched squeal of rusted brass curtain rings.
By the third week, Megan’s left hand had largely healed into an angry pink scar.
She still unconsciously favored it, keeping her fingers curled inward like a dying spider.
Her broken boot remained hostage at the village cobbler, forcing her to continue her halting uneven rhythm through the corridors.
Dan had grown intimately, irritatingly familiar with the sound.
He could track her location in the massive house purely by the acoustic echoes of her limp.
It was a Tuesday afternoon when the scraping stopped outside the east drawing room.
Dan was in the hallway carrying a stack of damp smelling correspondences to the library.
He paused.
The drawing room had been sealed for five years.
It was the room where Heather used to play the pianoforte.
The staff knew never to open the doors.
From inside came a muffled breathless grunt.
Then came the sharp sound of fabric tearing.
Dan pushed the heavy double doors open.
The air inside was thick, tasting heavily of moth dust and dried lavender that had long since lost its sweetness.
The room was pitch black save for a thin sliver of gray light slicing through the center of the massive floor-to-ceiling black velvet drapes.
Megan was currently waging a physical war against them.
She had dragged a mahogany dining chair to the window and was standing precariously on its velvet seat in her stockinged feet.
She had both hands clamped around the heavy braided cord of the pulley system.
She leaned her entire body weight backward in a desperate attempt to drag the curtains apart.
Dan spoke from the doorway, telling her the pulley was rusted.
His voice sounded startlingly loud in the dead room.
Megan gasped, her foot slipping off the edge of the chair.
She flailed, dropping the cord to grab the heavy velvet drape for balance.
The ancient fabric, weakened by years of damp rot, immediately gave way with a sickening rip.
She tumbled backward, landing squarely on a low settee covered in a sheet.
A massive cloud of gray dust erupted into the air, billowing outward like smoke from a cannon.
Dan did not rush to her aid.
He stood in the doorway, watching as she hacked and coughed, waving her hands blindly through the particulate fog.
He walked into the room, swatting a cloud of dust away from his face.
He stated he was beginning to suspect she was an agent sent by his enemies to systematically demolish his estate piece by piece.
Megan dragged herself into a sitting position.
Her slate blue dress was covered in a thick layer of gray grime.
She rubbed a streak of soot across her forehead with the back of her wrist, glaring at him through the haze.
She wheezed that if she were an assassin, she would simply lock him in this room and let the mold in the upholstery finish the job.
She complained it smelled like a crypt.
She explained she was looking for a book on botany she was told was in here, and she refused to search in the dark.
Dan stopped a few feet from the settee.
He looked up at the window.
The torn velvet hung in a ragged, pathetic strip.
He rigidly reminded her that the room was kept closed.
Megan corrected him sharply, stating the room was decomposing.
She stood up, brushing futilely at her skirts.
She accused him of thinking he was preserving a memory, while he was merely hoarding rot.
She pointed out the damp was eating the plaster, and the floorboards were warping under the carpets.
It was the first time she had used his first name.
It hit his ear with the jarring, jagged impact of a broken glass.
She pointed a dirt-stained finger at the heavy drapes.
She ordered him to pull them open.
She threatened to find a pair of garden shears and cut them down herself.
Dan looked at her.
Her hair was unraveling from its severe knot.
She was filthy, panting, and aggressively defiant.
She did not look like a duchess.
She looked like a feral cat backed into a corner of a cellar.
He walked past her, his boots leaving clear, sharp footprints in the dust on the floorboards.
He grabbed the heavy braided cord she had abandoned.
He wrapped it twice around his leather-gloved hand, braced his boots against the wainscoting, and pulled.
The muscles in his back, dormant and stiff for years, screamed in protest.
The rusted iron pulley at the top of the window frame shrieked a high, metallic agony.
He gritted his teeth, tasting the metallic tang of old blood in his mouth, and threw his weight backward.
With a sound like a gunshot, the rust broke.
The heavy black velvet drapes rushed apart, collapsing into a heap of fabric and dust on either side of the alcove.
Light slammed into the room.
It was not a gentle, romantic illumination.
It was the harsh, unforgiving glare of a bleak winter afternoon, and it illuminated every single flaw.
Dan blinked against the sudden brightness, his eyes watering violently.
He turned around.
Megan was right.
The room was not a pristine shrine.
The sunlight revealed wallpaper peeling away in long, yellowed strips like dead skin.
The sheet covering the pianoforte was speckled with black mildew.
The colors of the Persian rug had bled into a muddy, indistinct brown.
It was not a room frozen in time.
It was a corpse left out to weather.
He stared at the peeling wallpaper.
The crushing, suffocating weight he had carried for seven years suddenly felt less like a tragic, noble grief, and more like a profound, humiliating foolishness.
He had been guarding a pile of garbage.
He whispered that it was ruined.
The roughness in his throat was not from the dust.
Megan stepped forward, her stockinged feet silent on the ruined rug.
She stopped beside him.
She smelled intensely of dust and the faint, sour tang of nervous sweat, but she didn’t shrink away from the squalor.
Her voice dropped its sharp edge, softening into something painfully practical.
She told him it was just water damage and moths.
She promised it could be scrubbed and aired out.
She reminded him that he could not fix something if he refused to look at it.
Dan looked down at her.
The sunlight caught the dull brown of her eyes, illuminating tiny amber flecks near the pupil.
She was staring straight ahead at the moldy pianoforte.
He uncoiled the braided cord from his gloved hand.
The leather was deeply grooved where the rope had bitten into it.
His voice entirely hollow, he told her to inform Brian to have the staff strip the room.
He ordered the drapes burned.
He walked out, leaving the doors wide open behind him.
The cold winter air rushed into the lungs of the dead room.
The cobbler returned the boot on a Thursday.
That evening, Dan sat in the library staring at the fire.
The flames chewed methodically through the dry oak, spitting tiny sparks against the iron grate.
The door opened.
The footsteps that entered the room were perfectly, terribly even.
Step.
Step.
Step.
Dan closed his eyes for a fraction of a second.
He had hated the scraping sound of her broken heel, but the sudden absence of it felt strangely disorienting.
It felt like a clock missing a tick.
Megan walked over to the opposite wingback chair and sat down.
She was wearing a different dress tonight.
It was a dark, muted green that actually fit her shoulders properly.
The cuffs, however, were visibly frayed.
She tucked her newly shod feet beneath the hem.
Dan observed that she walked like a normal person again, not looking away from the fire.
Megan leaned her head back against the cracked leather, assuring him it was a temporary illusion.
She explained her father had purchased the boots from a man who primarily made harnesses for draft horses.
She predicted they would inevitably fail again.
Dan reached over to the small table beside his chair.
Sitting on a silver tray was a crystal decanter filled with a dark amber liquid flanked by two heavy glasses.
He pulled the glass stopper out.
It squeaked sharply.
He poured a generous measure into both glasses.
He stood, walked over, and handed her one.
She took it, her fingers brushing his.
Her skin was warm.
She asked what it was.
Dan returned to his seat and took a sip, telling her it was French brandy.
The liquid burned a hot, vicious trail down his throat, pooling like liquid coal in his stomach.
He noted it had been sitting in the cellar since before he was married to his first wife.
He said it deliberately, a test swung like a blunt instrument in the quiet room.
Megan looked at the amber liquid.
She didn’t flinch at the mention of Heather.
She didn’t offer a platitude.
She just brought the glass to her lips and took a large swallow.
She immediately choked.
She coughed violently, her eyes watering as she slammed the glass down on the side table.
She thumped her chest with a closed fist, rasping that it tasted like a campfire extinguished with kerosene.
Dan took another, smaller sip, mildly noting it was considered exceptionally rare.
Megan croaked that the French must be masochists, wiping a tear from the corner of her eye.
She looked across at him, her chest still heaving slightly.
She bluntly asked him why he had bought her.
The question dropped into the space between them, stripping away the thin veneer of civility they had managed to construct.
It was brutal.
It was entirely unpolished.
Dan looked at his glass.
The firelight refracted through the crystal, throwing jagged orange shadows across his knuckles.
He explained his barristers informed him that if he died without an heir, the estate would fall to his cousin in Yorkshire.
He described the cousin as a man who bred fighting dogs and possessed the intellect of a root vegetable.
He predicted the cousin would sell the land and evict the tenants within a year.
Megan stated that he had required a womb.
There was no self-pity in her voice, just the hard, flat cadence of an accountant reading a ledger.
She added her father was having his kneecaps threatened by a gambling syndicate.
She confirmed they were the cheapest, most desperate option on the market.
Dan looked up, meeting her eyes, and agreed they were.
He expected her to look away, humiliated.
He expected the quiet, crushing resentment that had hovered around her in the church to return.
Instead, Megan reached out, picked up the glass of terrible brandy, and took another, more cautious sip.
She swallowed hard, shivering slightly as it went down.
She admitted softly, staring at the fire, that she used to lie awake at night terrified her father would sell her to an older lord.
She described the old lord as a seventy-year-old man who smelled of spoiled milk and had a goiter the size of a summer squash.
She turned her head to look at him, her mouth twisting into a wry, bitter line.
She told him when her father secured the mourning Duke of Rothbury instead, she nearly wept with relief.
She recounted the rumors that he was a tragic phantom who lived in the dark weeping over a shrine.
She admitted it had sounded like an absolute holiday.
Dan stared at her.
He repeated her words, bewildered that she viewed marrying a clinically depressed recluse as a holiday.
Megan corrected him sharply, pointing out he was a recluse with his own teeth and a staggering fortune.
She warned him not to underestimate the appeal of a man who ignored her.
She considered it vastly superior to a man who demanded she entertain him.
She sighed, swirling the brandy in her glass.
She lamented that she had arrived, smashed his urn, and now found herself fighting his drapery and drinking his kerosene.
She declared it entirely exhausting.
A strange pressure was building behind Dan’s ribs.
It felt like a physical blockage, a sudden restriction of oxygen.
He gripped his glass tighter, his knuckles whitening.
He managed to say, his voice thick, that he was sorry he had failed to be sufficiently neglectful.
Megan muttered she supposed she would adapt.
She threatened that if he began asking her to embroider cushions or play the pianoforte, she would pack her ruined boots and walk back to London.
The image flashed in Dan’s mind.
He pictured this tall, clumsy, brutally pragmatic woman marching down the muddy country road in draft horse boots, furious because he had asked her to needlepoint.
The pressure in his chest suddenly snapped.
It started as a harsh coughing sound deep in his throat.
Megan jumped, looking at him in alarm, perhaps thinking the brandy had finally poisoned him.
But the cough morphed, twisting into a jagged, rhythmic expulsion of air.
Dan bent forward, resting his elbows on his knees, pressing his free hand against his eyes.
His shoulders shook.
The sound was rusty, awful, and entirely involuntary.
It felt like tearing muscles that hadn’t been stretched in a decade.
His face actually ached.
The muscles in his cheeks screamed in protest as they were forced upward.
He was laughing.
It wasn’t a pleasant sound.
It was rough and broken, sounding more like a man scraping a shovel over stone.
But he couldn’t stop.
The sheer absurd reality of his life, the moldy rooms, the boiled soup, the absolute disaster of a woman sitting across from him complaining about his lack of neglect, crashed over him all at once.
Megan sat frozen in her chair, staring at him as if he had just sprouted a second head.
Slowly the rough sound faded, leaving Dan gasping slightly for air.
He lowered his hand from his eyes.
His chest heaved.
The tight agonizing band of lead that had constricted his heart since the day Heather died was still there.
But it had cracked.
Light was seeping through the fissures.
He looked at Megan.
He was smiling.
It was an uneven crooked thing, completely altering the stark haunted architecture of his face.
Megan stared at his mouth.
She swallowed, her throat clicking audibly in the quiet room.
She whispered, sounding genuinely shaken, not to do that again without warning.
She accused him of looking completely unhinged.
Dan admitted his voice still rough with the residue of the laugh, that he felt unhinged.
He took a long steadying breath, the smell of wood smoke and bitter brandy filling his lungs.
For the first time in two thousand five hundred and seventy days, Dan realized he was not dead yet.
March arrived in a brutal muddy assault.
The frozen ground of the estate surrendered to a persistent driving rain, turning the carriage paths into deep sucking trenches of brown sludge.
The air inside Rothbury Hall grew thick with moisture.
The cold morphed from a sharp bite into a heavy damp ache that settled deep into the marrow.
Megan developed a hacking cough.
It was a dry ugly sound that echoed down the long corridors, rattling the remaining intact porcelain.
Dan found her in the library on a Tuesday evening.
She was wrapped in three mismatched woolen shawls, huddled so close to the hearth that the hem of her dark green skirt was faintly smoking.
She was shaking.
Her skin, usually pale and sallow, was flushed a dull feverish red across the cheekbones.
Dan warned her she was burning her clothes.
Megan didn’t look up.
She merely tugged the outermost shawl tighter around her shoulders.
She muttered that if she caught fire, at least she would finally be warm.
She complained her bedchamber was a wind tunnel.
She explained the plaster had cracked above the window frame last night, and the rain was currently pooling on the floorboards.
She had been forced to put a soup tureen under the leak.
Dan stared at the rigid shivering line of her spine.
For seven years, he had operated on the principle of minimal interference.
He paid the bills.
He ate the boiled food.
He ignored the rot.
But the rot was now giving his wife a fever.
He ordered her to get up.
Megan let out a ragged sigh, the sound catching in her chest.
She pleaded with him, stating she did not have the energy to argue about stoicism today.
He insisted he was not arguing, stepping forward and reaching down to grip her upper arm.
His fingers pressed through the thick layers of wool.
She was terrifyingly hot to the touch.
He told her she could not sleep in a room with a structural leak because she would contract pneumonia.
He hauled her up.
She swayed heavily against him, her boots scraping weakly against the stone hearth.
She smelled intensely of fever sweat and singed fabric.
He did not lead her towards the guest wing.
He led her toward the grand staircase.
They climbed the sweeping uncarpeted mahogany steps in silence, save for the wet rattling sound of Megan’s breathing.
On the second floor landing, Dan bypassed his own small monastic sleeping quarters and stopped in front of a pair of massive double doors carved with the Rothbury crest.
It was the master suite.
It had been Heather’s room.
It had been sealed on the day of her funeral.
Dan reached out and gripped the brass handle.
The metal was freezing.
His stomach seized in a sharp, violent cramp of sheer panic.
He hadn’t crossed this threshold in two thousand six hundred days.
He pushed the doors open.
The air that rushed out hit him like a physical blow.
It was perfectly, agonizingly preserved.
It smelled of Heather’s heavy rosewater perfume, stale and cloying, mixed with the distinct metallic scent of ancient dust.
Megan leaned against the doorframe, coughing violently into her fist.
She looked up, squinting into the gloom.
The massive four-poster bed was draped in rotting pink silk.
The wardrobe was stuffed with dresses belonging to a ghost.
Megan rasped, her voice thick with exhaustion, that she could not sleep in a museum.
She shuddered that it felt like a grave.
Dan’s jaw locked so tight his teeth ground together.
He insisted it was not a grave, but a room with a functioning fireplace and intact masonry.
He walked in.
The carpet, thick and stifling, muffled his heavy boots.
He walked straight to the massive windows and ripped the rotting pink silk curtains back.
He didn’t bother with the pulleys.
He simply tore the fabric from the brass rings.
He roared for Brian, turning back toward the open doorway.
His voice ripped through the silent corridor, a sound of pure, unadulterated violence that startled Megan so badly she flinched.
Within minutes, the estate manager appeared, breathless and wide-eyed, flanked by two terrified footmen.
Dan ordered them to clear it, pointing a rigid finger at the pink silk bed hangings, the vanity table covered in tarnished silver brushes, and the wardrobe.
He demanded all of it stripped to the mattress, the clothes boxed, and the fire lit.
Brian stared, his mouth opening and closing like a landed fish, stammering about the late duchess.
Dan cut him off, declaring that Heather was dead.
The words tasted like ash, but they did not choke him.
He firmly added that his current wife was freezing to death, and they needed to clear the damn room.
It took two hours of frantic, brutal labor.
Megan sat in a wooden chair by the door, entirely silent, watching as the servants dismantled a shrine.
By midnight, the room was unrecognizable.
The pink silk was gone, replaced by stark, heavy white linens.
The vanity was bare.
A massive roaring fire chewed through thick logs of oak in the hearth, throwing blistering heat into the space.
The cloying scent of rosewater was entirely eradicated, burned away by the smell of wood smoke and fresh lye soap.
Dan stood at the foot of the bed.
His shirt sleeves were rolled up to his elbows, his forearms smeared with dust.
He looked at Megan.
She stood up slowly, her body trembling with fatigue.
She walked past him, dropping her mismatched shawls onto the floor.
She climbed into the massive bed, sinking into the mattress.
She pulled the heavy white quilt up to her chin.
She looked at him.
Her eyes were glazed with fever, but entirely present.
She whispered, her voice rough, that he did not have to demolish his past just to keep her warm.
Dan looked at the empty corners of the room.
The lead weight in his chest was gone.
In its place was an aching, raw emptiness, an emptiness that felt clean.
He walked around to the other side of the bed, noting softly that the past was beginning to smell terrible.
He sat down on the edge of the mattress, pulling off his boots.
They hit the floorboards with a heavy, final thud.
The fever broke three days later.
It was a quiet, unassuming Thursday night.
The rain had finally stopped, leaving a heavy, absolute silence pressing against the windowpanes of the master suite.
Megan lay on her back, staring at the canopy.
The room was dark, lit only by the dying embers in the grate.
The sheets smelled of her own sour sickness and the sharp, clean scent of the soap Mrs. Miller had used to wash her.
Beside her, Dan was entirely still.
He slept on his back, his hands folded rigidly over his chest like a medieval effigy.
He had slept in the bed with her for three nights, occupying his extreme edge of the mattress, offering only his proximity and the radiant heat of his body.
Megan turned her head.
She watched the slow, rhythmic rise and fall of his chest beneath his white linen nightshirt.
The bargain hung in the dark space between them, thick and unavoidable.
She had been purchased to provide an heir.
They had survived the urn, the rotten curtains, the fever, but they had not fulfilled the contract.
She swallowed.
Her throat was still raw.
She slowly, agonizingly, slid her hand across the cold expanse of the sheet.
Her knuckles brushed the heavy wool of his blanket.
Dan’s eyes snapped open.
He didn’t move his head, but his breathing stopped instantly.
Megan whispered, asking if he was awake.
Dan replied, his voice a low, gravelly scrape in the dark, that he was generally awake when he was being stared at.
Megan shifted, turning fully onto her side to face him.
Her knee bumped against his thigh beneath the covers.
He flinched, a sharp, involuntary tightening of his muscles.
Megan observed, her voice flat, stripping away any pretense, that he was terrified.
Dan slowly turned his head to look at her.
The embers cast a dull, reddish glow across his gaunt face.
He reminded her he was thirty-four years old and had spent a fifth of his life actively practicing how not to feel anything.
Megan bluntly corrected him, stating this required feeling.
She added it required friction, and a moderate amount of coordination.
She hated the delicate dancing euphemisms her mother had fed her before she died.
Dan let out a short, jagged huff of air.
It was that rusty, broken sound.
He told her she possessed the romantic soul of a bricklayer.
Megan softly replied she possessed a debt.
The humor drained from her voice, leaving only the raw, ugly truth.
She reminded him he had paid her father’s creditors and taken her out of a house that smelled of gin and terror.
She declared she owed him a child, and suggested they just get it done.
Dan stared at her.
The shadows deepened the hollows under his eyes.
Slowly, he reached out.
He didn’t reach for her waist or her face.
He reached for her left hand, the one that lay resting on the quilt.
His rough, calloused fingers traced the raised pink line of the scar on her palm.
The flesh was still tender.
Dan told her it wasn’t a transaction.
His voice dropped so low she felt the vibration in the mattress.
He insisted it wasn’t a transaction when she broke the urn, when she demanded the salt, or when she told him his grief was decomposing.
He rolled onto his side, mirroring her.
The space between them vanished.
The heat radiating from his body was immense.
He smelled of wood smoke, old leather, and male sweat.
It wasn’t a poetic scent.
It was heavy, grounding, and fiercely alive.
He leaned forward.
His face was inches from hers.
She could feel his breath ghosting over her lips.
He murmured, his eyes locked on hers, that if they did this, it was not a debt being paid.
He told her it was a decision to live messily, clumsily, and without stoicism.
Megan’s heart slammed aggressively against her ribs.
She was not a beautiful woman.
She was clumsy, sharp-tongued, and wearing a washed-out nightgown.
But looking at the morning Duke, seeing the desperate, terrifying light in his eyes, she realized she didn’t need to be beautiful.
She just needed to be here.
She reached up, her fingers tangling in the collar of his nightshirt.
She pulled.
The kiss was terrible.
It was a violent collision of teeth and noses.
Dan misjudged the angle, his jaw knocking sharply against hers.
Megan let out a startled squeal, instantly pulling back.
They froze, inches apart, breathing heavily in the dark.
Dan brought a hand up, rubbing his jaw.
He rasped a harsh apology, admitting he was completely out of practice.
Megan stared at him.
And then a sound bubbled up from her chest.
It was a quiet, hysterical snort.
She pointed out he had nearly broken her nose.
Dan looked horrified for a split second, but then his mouth twitched.
The twitch grew.
The rigid lines of his face broke open, and that rough, scraping sound filled the room again.
He laughed.
It was louder this time, genuine and deep.
Megan laughed with him, burying her face in his chest, her shoulders shaking.
They lay there in the dark, in the ruins of a ghost’s bedroom, laughing like idiots until they were breathless.
When the laughter finally subsided, Dan wrapped his arms around her, pulling her solid, warm weight flush against him.
He kissed her again, slower this time, careful.
It was imperfect.
It was awkward.
But as his hands moved down her spine and she let out a quiet, shuddering breath, the silence of Rothbury Hall finally shattered for good.
THE END
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