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Part 2

I found an empty hallway and stood in it for a long time.

Long enough that a passing guard asked if I needed anything.

I told him I was fine.

He looked uncertain but walked away anyway, because contradicting me has never ended well for anyone in this pack.

The thing about Cole — the thing I had buried so carefully beneath six years of discipline and sharp words — is that he was the only person who ever looked at me without flinching first.

Everyone else in my life has always wanted something.

My father wanted an heir who wouldn’t embarrass him.

The suitors wanted territory.

Dorian wanted the pack and will settle for destroying whatever he can’t have.

Cole just wanted me.

Even when I was terrible to him.

Even when I was sharpest.

He used to lean against doorframes and watch me dismantle people and then laugh, like he found my particular brand of damage endearing.

Nobody laughs at my damage anymore.

They fear it, or they resent it, or they try to use it against me.

Standing in that hallway, I tried to remember exactly when I had stopped knowing what it felt like to be someone’s first choice rather than someone’s best option.

Six years is a long time to carry something alone.

Six years of watching Dorian wind himself further into my family’s trust.

Six years of sending away every man who came close, because letting anyone in meant giving Dorian another weapon.

I thought I was protecting everyone.

I thought I was being noble.

Tonight, with Cole’s voice still raw in my ears and his handprint burning invisible on my waist, I was beginning to wonder if I had just been afraid.

If the armor I built to protect my sister had also been the thing keeping me from asking for help.

If I had confused isolation with strength for so long I couldn’t tell them apart anymore.

I didn’t have an answer.

I pulled my spine straight.

I walked back toward the light and the noise and the thirty-odd Alphas who thought they were going to decide my future.

Tomorrow the trials continued.

Tomorrow I would be the sharpest thing in any room I walked into.

Tomorrow I would figure out how to break a demonic pact with library books and sheer bloody-minded determination.

But tonight I let myself feel it — just for those quiet minutes in that empty hall.

The weight of missing him.

The particular ache of letting go of something that had never stopped being yours.

Ten trials stood between now and whatever came next.

Ten chances for everything to go wrong.

The real question was never whether Cole would win the trials.

The real question was whether either of us would survive finding out what we’d actually lost.

Part 3

The answer, when it finally came, arrived wrapped in truffle oil and firelight and the particular warmth of wine that tasted like forgetting.

Not the answer Nora had been looking for.

Not the clean, decisive revelation she’d been chasing through cursed library stacks and encrypted footnotes and six years of sleepless nights trying to understand what Dorian Vale actually was and how to undo him.

This answer was softer.

More dangerous.

It arrived in a dining room on the fifth day of the trials, in a chair pulled too close to Cole Hargrove’s, and it had nothing to do with demonic pacts or pack succession.

It had to do with the fact that she still loved him.

That she had always loved him.

And that she was so exhausted from pretending otherwise that when something in the enchanted air dissolved her pretense, she’d had nothing left underneath it but the truth.

The dining room trial had been Alpha Edmund’s idea of elegance.

Sit together.

Eat.

Leave when the clock strikes twelve.

Last one out is eliminated.

The rules were simple enough that the trap in them was obvious.

Nora had walked in scanning the perimeter.

Six years of managing Dorian Vale had made her into someone who treated comfort like a weapon pointed in her direction.

The room was too warm.

The fire too convivially bright.

The food arranged with the kind of perfectionism that suggested someone had wanted them to want it.

She had catalogued all of this.

She had been appropriately suspicious.

And then the enchantment had gotten her anyway, because the best traps are the ones that don’t announce themselves.

Finn Calloway sat down first, which was not a surprise — Finn viewed every situation as an opportunity for strategic advantage, including the inside of a potentially cursed dining room.

He speared a roasted potato, tasted it, and said truffle oil with the satisfaction of a man confirming something he’d suspected all along.

Cole sat down second.

That was the surprise.

Cole Hargrove was the most controlled man she’d ever known.

She had seen him hold himself together through things that would have broken most people.

She had watched him maintain perfect stillness in situations that demanded absolute precision.

He was not someone who sat down in suspicious rooms without checking the exits first.

He was not someone who let his guard down in front of an audience.

And yet here he was — jacket slung over the back of his chair, reaching for the bread like he had nowhere else to be.

Like he was entirely unbothered by the enchanted warmth crawling through the air, or like he’d already decided it didn’t matter.

If the enchantment had already reached him, it had worked fast.

Nora remained standing for another full minute.

Testing the air.

Watching the fire.

Watching Cole, because she hadn’t stopped watching Cole since the night she’d realized she’d made a catastrophic mistake letting him leave and had kept watching him ever since the way you monitor the site of a wound, not because looking helps, but because you can’t stop.

Then Finn poured wine, and the smell of it reached her, and something in the room shifted with a pressure so subtle she almost missed it.

She sat down.

She had not sat down in a room without calculating exits since Dorian Vale arrived in her life.

The fact that she did it now without thinking — pulled out a chair, lowered herself into it, reached for a glass — was its own kind of alarm bell.

She noticed it.

She filed it away under things to address.

Then the wine reached her and the urgency of the filing dissolved.

The first hour passed in what felt like minutes.

Finn told a story about a business negotiation that had ended with someone’s livestock running loose through a formal dinner, and Nora laughed — actually laughed, not the tactical smile she deployed in public but the real version, the one she’d almost forgotten she still possessed.

Cole watched her when she laughed.

She caught him doing it and he didn’t look away.

She should have found that alarming.

She found it, instead, like being set in a patch of sun.

Finn poured more wine.

The clock ticked.

The fire crackled and popped.

The food was extraordinary — properly extraordinary, the kind of meal that cost someone’s attention as well as their resources, the kind that said this matters, this should be savored.

Nora was not a person who savored things as a rule.

She ate between tasks, between trials, between the thousand small acts of vigilance that made up her days.

She couldn’t remember the last time she’d sat at a table and let herself simply taste something.

She tasted everything.

Time moved strangely.

Not slow exactly — more like thick.

Weighted with warmth.

The edges of her thoughts had gone soft and pleasant, her wolf quieter than it had been in years, that constant low-level anxiety she’d learned to treat as normal fading down to something she could barely hear.

Some fraction of her recognized the wrongness of it.

Some trained, careful part of her brain kept surfacing with warnings.

This is the trial, it kept saying.

This is the mechanism.

You should be watching the clock.

She kept meaning to watch the clock.

The wine was good.

The food was extraordinary.

The fire made patterns on the walls that she found, to her slowly increasing alarm, genuinely beautiful.

She was still aware enough, in the first half hour, to know that something was wrong.

Some small precise part of her brain kept raising its hand, trying to flag the golden warmth spreading through her chest as suspicious, trying to note that she should care more about the clock than she currently did.

She kept meaning to address that.

She kept getting distracted by the firelight, or by Finn saying something funny, or by Cole watching her with an expression she hadn’t seen on his face in six years.

He had looked at her like that when they were younger.

Before she’d gotten good at making him stop.

Before she’d understood that letting someone see you clearly was the same as handing them something they could eventually use to break you.

She had made him stop because she’d been afraid.

That was the truth that the enchantment had stripped down to.

Underneath six years of armor and calculated distance and the very good, very real reason she’d let him go, there was the simpler, older fear: she had been afraid of needing him.

Afraid of what it would do to her if he left.

Afraid of what it already did to her, every time he looked at her like she was someone worth looking at.

She had never known how to hold that kind of thing without flinching.

She had learned to treat affection as a potential liability and love as something you managed rather than felt.

Then he’d left anyway.

And she’d been right to be afraid.

And also completely wrong about what it meant.

Do you remember that night in the tower?

His voice came through the haze like something from a different time.

Low.

Rough at the edges.

She turned to look at him.

He was watching her the way he used to — not calculating, not guarded, just open in the particular way that had always undone her because nobody looked at her like that.

Nobody else ever had.

People looked at her with wariness or admiration or carefully managed fear.

Cole had always just looked.

You told me you loved me, he said.

She remembered the tower.

Of course she remembered the tower.

She had spent six years not remembering it with tremendous effort and considerable cost.

She had loved Cole Hargrove since she was old enough to understand what love cost.

She’d been sixteen when she first started tracking the shape of him across rooms without meaning to.

Eighteen when she admitted she was in serious trouble.

Twenty when she stopped being able to pretend it was something manageable.

Twenty-two when she’d said it aloud in that tower, in the dark, with rain at the windows, and meant every syllable.

Twenty-four when she’d let him walk away because the alternative was his death.

And now she was thirty — allegedly a functioning Alpha in her own right — sitting in an enchanted dining room discovering that she was still twenty-two.

Still in that tower.

Still meaning every syllable she’d said and never taken back.

Come here.

Not a question.

She had forgotten, or had been pretending to forget, the way Cole’s voice changed when something mattered enough.

When the performance dropped away and what was left was just what he actually wanted.

She moved without deciding to.

She settled into the warmth of his lap the way water settles into the shape of its container — not because she chose it, exactly, but because the shape was right.

Because her body remembered what her mind had been disciplined not to think about.

His arms came around her.

Her hands found his chest.

His heartbeat was steady and real and she had missed it with an ache she had never once let herself fully acknowledge.

The kiss was slow.

Not desperate — desperation would have been easier to dismiss afterward, easier to attribute entirely to the enchantment, easier to forget.

It was slow and careful and present, the kind of kiss that knows exactly what it is.

Somewhere across the table, Finn made a sound like a man in physical pain.

Neither of them noticed.

She was aware, distantly, that the clock was chiming.

She was aware that the room was warm and that her wolf had gone quiet — not the watchful quiet of a predator but the deeper quiet of something finally at rest.

She would think about that later.

She would think about all of it later.

For that moment, she had nothing.

No calculations.

No armor.

No six years of accumulated grief and isolation and the constant grinding work of protecting everyone from a threat no one else could see.

Just this.

Just him.

Just the particular silence of something you’ve been fighting against finally, briefly, winning.

The fork came down on Cole’s thigh and the sound he made shattered every last thread of the enchantment at once.

Nora found herself standing on the table.

She had no memory of how she’d gotten there.

In her hand was a clementine, half-peeled.

She looked at it with the kind of confusion that suggested she had been examining it for some time.

Finn was at the door with one hand on Cole’s shoulder, blood on his arm from what appeared to be a self-inflicted fork wound, saying something with urgent quiet about the clock.

Cole was looking at her.

She couldn’t read his expression from across the room — the enchantment’s departing fog was still too thick.

But she saw the moment he turned to follow Finn and then stopped.

Saw the decision cross his face.

She did not know, then, what he was deciding.

She wouldn’t know until she was sitting in a chair in the same room a few minutes later, the clementine on the table in front of her, watching Cole come back across the room alone.

Finn was gone.

The door was closed.

Outside, she could hear the murmur of competitors being assessed, the trial concluded without them.

Cole crouched in front of her chair.

Close enough that she could see the bruise forming on his thigh, dark and spreading.

You need a healer, she said.

It’s fine.

His voice was clear.

Whatever the enchantment had done to him, the fork had finished its work.

Then he said: I pulled out of the deal.

Nora was quiet for a moment.

The deal.

The arrangement with Finn — resources and alliances in exchange for helping Finn win the pack.

The arrangement that had brought Cole back to the Ashford estate in the first place.

Not love.

Not her.

Strategy.

She had known it.

She had told herself she knew it and that it didn’t matter.

Why, she said.

Because it’s your pack.

She looked at him carefully.

His face was steady.

No performance in it.

That’s not enough of a reason, she said.

Cole exhaled.

The sound of someone releasing something they’d been holding for a long time.

Finn told me I was throwing away the best opportunity my pack would ever see.

He was right.

Access to the Ashford mines, the silver trade routes, an alliance with one of the oldest packs on the continent — that’s not nothing.

That’s everything I’ve been trying to build.

She said nothing.

Let him get there.

And I looked at you, he said.

Sitting on that table with your clementine.

And I couldn’t do it.

She felt something tighten in her chest.

Cole, she started.

Because I love you.

The fire cracked.

Somewhere outside the wolves were moving, the sounds of the fifth trial’s conclusion carrying across the evening grounds.

Nora’s wolf, which had been restlessly circling since Cole walked out of the shadows during introductions, went still.

She stood up.

Not because she needed to move but because sitting felt too small for what was pressing against her chest.

You’re saying that because of the enchantment, she said.

The wine and the warmth and — you didn’t choose that.

The room chose it for both of us.

He stood too.

Slower.

Holding her gaze.

The enchantment lowered my defenses, he said.

It didn’t put anything there that wasn’t there already.

Nora pressed her palms flat on the table.

Breathed.

You don’t know everything, she said.

Tell me.

She turned toward the window.

Outside, the moon was beginning to rise, painting the grounds silver.

I know I need to, she said.

I’ve tried before.

And I need you to believe me that when the words come out wrong — when they don’t make sense or they don’t land the way I mean them — it’s because something is working to stop them from landing.

He was quiet.

Then: what something?

Dorian Vale.

She watched his face.

The familiar blankness didn’t come.

He was just watching her, steady, waiting.

He made a pact, she said.

Demonic.

I don’t know when or what he paid for it.

But the result is that everyone who meets him loves him.

Trusts him.

Believes whatever he says.

The curse makes it so that anything said against him gets — filtered.

Rearranged.

You can’t hear it as truth because the pact rewrites it before it lands.

Cole was very still.

Except you, he said.

Except me.

She crossed her arms.

I don’t know why.

Maybe the pact has limits.

Maybe something in my wolf resists it.

But I have been the only person in this entire pack who can see what he is, for six years, and I have been completely unable to make anyone understand it.

He said nothing for a moment.

Then: Bianca wrote me a letter.

She turned.

She wrote and asked me to come, he said.

She said she was worried about you.

Worried that something was wrong that you weren’t telling anyone.

Nora swallowed.

Celia, she said.

Her name here is Celia.

And she shouldn’t have written.

It’s dangerous for her.

She was right to worry, though.

Nora looked at him for a long moment.

Looked at the bruise on his thigh and the fork wound on his forearm that he hadn’t mentioned and the six years of lines on his face that hadn’t been there when she knew him before.

He had built something without her.

Come back without owing her anything.

Pulled out of an alliance that would have benefited his entire pack because he looked at her sitting on a table with a clementine and couldn’t hand her world to someone else.

She sat back down.

Looked at her hands.

Dorian asked for my hand two months before you left, she said.

I refused.

You remember I told you?

His brow furrowed.

I remember saying he seemed decent.

She nodded.

The night you left.

He found you.

At that bar near the eastern road.

Cole went very still.

He told you that I’d accepted him, she said.

That the betrothal had been announced.

That I’d been too much of a coward to tell you myself.

Silence.

You were drunk, she said.

You’d had three times what you could usually handle.

He’d been with you for hours before I found you.

He had his hand on your throat, Cole.

I was standing ten feet away.

And I understood — very clearly, in that moment — that if I tried to correct him, if I made a scene, if I gave him any reason to think you mattered to me, he would use you.

Cole’s jaw tightened.

He would have ended you, she said.

And everyone around you would have helped him do it, because everyone who meets him loves him.

You were the only person I needed to keep away from him, and the only way I could do that was to let you believe I’d chosen him.

So I let you go.

She heard him exhale.

Long and slow.

I thought — he stopped.

Started again.

I thought you’d gotten tired of waiting for a guard’s son to become someone worth choosing.

The words landed like a blow.

She looked at him directly.

You built a pack, she said.

From nothing.

While I was trapped in this estate trying to protect people who didn’t know they needed protecting.

You became someone.

And I was the one who —

She stopped.

Pressed her lips together.

Tried again.

I competed in ten trials for the right to keep my own pack.

Every single trial I was aware of exactly where you were standing.

What angle the light was hitting your face.

Whether you were watching me or trying not to.

Whether you were watching because you still cared, or watching because you hated me, or watching for some third reason I was afraid to name.

His expression shifted.

I did not let you go because I stopped wanting you.

She held his gaze.

I let you go because wanting you was going to get you killed.

Because Dorian knew I loved you before I’d ever said it aloud, and because loving someone is a liability when the person standing across from you would use it without hesitation.

I have had six years to regret that decision.

I have had six years to wonder whether I made the right call.

And I still don’t know.

But I know that I did not choose him.

I know that I have never, not for a single moment, wanted anyone else.

The last sentence came out quieter than the rest.

She hadn’t meant to say it.

It was true anyway.

The room was quiet.

The fire had burned down to deep coals.

Through the window, the moon was fully risen.

Cole moved.

Crossed the distance between them in two steps and crouched in front of her chair again, but closer this time.

Close enough that she could see the exact color of his eyes in the low light, the same hazel she had catalogued six years ago and stored away in the section of her mind marked do not open.

I’m not going anywhere, he said.

That’s not a decision you get to make yet, she said.

Her voice was very careful.

There are still trials.

Dorian is still here.

I have a curse to break and a sister to free and a pack to win, and I cannot afford to do any of that if I’m —

If you’re what?

She looked away.

At the fire.

At the window.

At the demonic arts text she’d torn pages from on the second day of the trials and had been carrying folded in her pocket ever since.

If I’m distracted.